augh.
as it is, i am bored as heck around here. this is the third post for the day and well, i do hope that this is the last.
stuck in the mountains. nowhere 'cheap' to go to, no houses of friends to crash that's near, no close malls, no where to go.
and it isn't like there are people whom i can generally hang out with here... everyone's supposedly busy with something; like thesis. am i not doing that, too?? whatever. they make their lives complicated by not following instructions regarding the thesis format. is it my fault that i actually listen? no. moping about how my work's being approved and theirs rejected won't do them much good. i really want to help, care even about my own classmates, but sometimes they make it so hard for me to do so. how can you help people who refuse to help themselves?
i'm just really annoyed with how far i've come only to feel so... out of it. the only drive that i have to keep myself going with studies in that learning institution would be the friggin' piece of paper society tells me i am somewhat good enough for it.
i need something... i don't know, something that would get my spirits high again. what that something is, i am not sure. almost anything will do, actually.
annoyed as i am, i don't seem to have that usual 'me against the world' feeling. is it good? no, just weird.
stuck in the mountains. nowhere 'cheap' to go to, no houses of friends to crash that's near, no close malls, no where to go.
and it isn't like there are people whom i can generally hang out with here... everyone's supposedly busy with something; like thesis. am i not doing that, too?? whatever. they make their lives complicated by not following instructions regarding the thesis format. is it my fault that i actually listen? no. moping about how my work's being approved and theirs rejected won't do them much good. i really want to help, care even about my own classmates, but sometimes they make it so hard for me to do so. how can you help people who refuse to help themselves?
i'm just really annoyed with how far i've come only to feel so... out of it. the only drive that i have to keep myself going with studies in that learning institution would be the friggin' piece of paper society tells me i am somewhat good enough for it.
i need something... i don't know, something that would get my spirits high again. what that something is, i am not sure. almost anything will do, actually.
annoyed as i am, i don't seem to have that usual 'me against the world' feeling. is it good? no, just weird.