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hey its xmas. i didnt even realize till now. its also first nite of hanukkah. and since thats clearly more important.. HAPPY HANUKKAH everyone!
blah im so depressed. worst feeling ever. larry left again for 3weeks in the army. i fuckin hate it, he told me that for the next couple months, he'd be getting out every week. and i might not even see him for a month, cuz im joining the army in 2 weeks and i dont kno which weekends i stay on base..fuck the army. i mean, like i dont even think i wanna join anymore.
i think i can easily quit the army, cuz im a female, and my parents arent in the country, so it should be easy... but i dont want to regret not doing at least a few months of army. im thinkin maybe i should a least do a couple months, and if im really suffering, i can leave. at least i tried, right? maybe army isnt even for me.. who knows.. plus, people always bash on my job. apparently a chemical warfare instructor is a shitty job. well fuck i didnt kno and hearing shit from ppl like all the time lowers my motivation for a job i thot would be pretty cool.
im tired of being broke. u kno wat, i actually miss working. like, at jacob cnx. i was almost the fuckin boss there. i miss working, and making money, and buying whatever i want. here, i have to mouch of ppl while waiting for fucking 2 months until i start training.
honestly, i dont think i see myself 2 years in the army.
well.. im thinking off getting laser eye surgery. right now im minus 8 or 9. 3 or 4 more numbers up and im legally blind. wooo! hehe. so i went to get tests done. apparently israel has the best doctor for laser eye surgery. so when i went last week for the test, he told me that because i wear contacts alot it sorta made my eye swollen and he couldnt complete the tests. so now im in glasses for like 2 weeks.. till the 29th actually when i go to jerusalem to finish off the tests. the doc says that he thinks that i fit for the test. the surgery costs 16000 shekels. thats like almost 4000 dollars!! craziness.
but im probably gonna get the surgery done in april, after basic training and my course, cuz i cant be in dirty environment and alot of sunlight right after the surgery.
but hopefully these will be my last few months with glasses/contacts...
its all cold and rainy here :(
blah im so depressed. worst feeling ever. larry left again for 3weeks in the army. i fuckin hate it, he told me that for the next couple months, he'd be getting out every week. and i might not even see him for a month, cuz im joining the army in 2 weeks and i dont kno which weekends i stay on base..fuck the army. i mean, like i dont even think i wanna join anymore.
i think i can easily quit the army, cuz im a female, and my parents arent in the country, so it should be easy... but i dont want to regret not doing at least a few months of army. im thinkin maybe i should a least do a couple months, and if im really suffering, i can leave. at least i tried, right? maybe army isnt even for me.. who knows.. plus, people always bash on my job. apparently a chemical warfare instructor is a shitty job. well fuck i didnt kno and hearing shit from ppl like all the time lowers my motivation for a job i thot would be pretty cool.
im tired of being broke. u kno wat, i actually miss working. like, at jacob cnx. i was almost the fuckin boss there. i miss working, and making money, and buying whatever i want. here, i have to mouch of ppl while waiting for fucking 2 months until i start training.
honestly, i dont think i see myself 2 years in the army.
well.. im thinking off getting laser eye surgery. right now im minus 8 or 9. 3 or 4 more numbers up and im legally blind. wooo! hehe. so i went to get tests done. apparently israel has the best doctor for laser eye surgery. so when i went last week for the test, he told me that because i wear contacts alot it sorta made my eye swollen and he couldnt complete the tests. so now im in glasses for like 2 weeks.. till the 29th actually when i go to jerusalem to finish off the tests. the doc says that he thinks that i fit for the test. the surgery costs 16000 shekels. thats like almost 4000 dollars!! craziness.
but im probably gonna get the surgery done in april, after basic training and my course, cuz i cant be in dirty environment and alot of sunlight right after the surgery.
but hopefully these will be my last few months with glasses/contacts...
its all cold and rainy here :(