Today.
Today was interesting. Chase sent me a text and it turned into him coming all the way from Cookville to see me. He took me out to eat at Wasabi and then he took me to my appointment at UT. I am so glad he took me because I would have never found a parking spot on that campus. I really don't want to go to UT, but that may be my only choice. It seems I am going to be in college forever again. I feel like I have just wasted the past seven years of my life. I have nothing to show for it and it really sucks. I had such big plans for myself and I was fearless to go to Japan. Now I am an empty shell of what I was just a few years ago. I have lost my way and I don't know how to get back to where I was. I have become so comfortable. Falling in love has always been the biggest mistake of my fucking life. It always seems to hold me back and I never seem to get over it. What the fuck is wrong with me? My heart is way too big for one person to carry. I wish I could just let go of the past and move on, but alas I cannot. I wish I could change the past....