I never wanted to wake up!

[flygirl_1]

I had a dream about you last night. It was so real. When I woke up it took my breath away. I felt as though I was going to die and I wished I had never woke up from that dream. I was playing some unknown sport in a in a huge arena when one of my girlfriends came up to me and told me that Nathan (my boyfriend from childhood, but of course in my dreams he is all grown up) was looking for me. She told me he was in love with me and wanted to be with me. I have dreamed about you before, but it has been years since that time. When I saw you, I knew I loved you and wanted you as desperately as you wanted me. I ran to you and threw my arms around you. For some reason you were so familiar to me, though we had never really touched in my other dreams. I knew your smell, your look, and the way your body felt with your arms around me. I felt as though it had happened many times before. I could not let you go and I wanted you more then I could fathom. When we would talk, we spoke of times that happened in my past dreams of you. I felt as though I knew you in real life. I could not get your smell out of my head. In the middle of us holding each other I awoke to find it was a dream and I was alone. You are a dream of someone who does exist, someone who I love so much. JohnPaul why do you torture me even in the depths of my dreams? It was not Nathan in my dreams it was you, with your familiar touch and smell. Why do I love you so much? Not even my dreams can free me from my prison of you. I love you…..
I have dreamed about Nathan many times, in fact he shows up in many of my dreams since I was nineteen years old. This dream was different because Nathan has never loved me before or held me, so it was the person I love in real life who was in my dreams.