What a Mess!!
Last night was a strange night for me. My ex-boyfriend came by my house to see me at like 1am; I was ok with him coming over. I had some questions I had really wanted to ask him for a while. When we broke up back in November of 2004, I went crazy. I had never been so in love with someone in my life, in fact it almost drove me to my grave. Last night I asked him what he really felt about me when we were dating. He told me that many guys don't tell girls how they really feel about them because that leaves the guy vulnerable. Well, he told me that I was a "perfect" girl friend; he said "too perfect" he said that he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and ask me to be his wife. But, he said that scared him so much because he was not ready for that kind of a relationship. So, he decided to back off from me so he could have space. So, after over a year I finally find out the real truth about our relationship. Needless to say it was strange, but I have no feelings for him now. In fact he was coming onto me very strong, trying to kiss me and grab me. But, there is this one person that I can't get out of my head. So, I never gave into any of his advances. I feel faithfulness to a guy who I am not even dating, and that is what kept me from doing things with my ex-boyfriend. My life is so crazy. I still don’t agree with what he said about leaving yourself vulnerable. If you love someone then you should tell them, I mean what does it help to keep all those feelings inside. I like to let my feelings out otherwise I would go crazy!!!!