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long time no update.
sorry guys...i'll try harder.
i need to redo this whole journal thing, the scenery is getting a little old. dont you agree?
well...a lot of new stuff going on. i got into neumann...or as meme calls it "the dumb dumb school" but oh well. im going there...im going to play soccer for them (hopefully, but almost positive)im excited. i know im making the right decision for myself, even if i am "selling my self short" ill be happy there...even though it is a CATHOLIC college. moving on...
me and phil are together. well...not offically, but whatever. we rnt gunna go through the whole "will you be my girlfriend" thing on the fuckin crazy mouse again. im really happy. not becuz i have a boyfriend, but becuz what we have is great. and i KNOW everyone will say "u were so miserable with him, you always fought, he pisses you off, he's broke...BLAH BLAH BLAH" maybe some of its true...it DOES suck that he's not friends with half of my close friends, oh well. im happy, and i know college is right around the corner...but we will deal with that when it comes. i might be setting myself up for another heartbreak, but...ill get through it...hopefully this time i wont be in denial.
thanksgiving break has been great.
christmas season is always a drag. i dont really tell anyone about it, nor do i let anyone see me upset, but once i hear christmas music...my mind is not thinking about how jingle bells rock. my mind is in a total opposite place...thinking about my sister. i memorized every song from that cd that she played from 2 weeks before thanksgiving till the day she died..24/7...nonstop. every time i hear it on the radio...i get into tears. its just...everything is so different without her. there's no excitement for santa to come, i dont even WANT to see santa on the fire truck this year...its just so depressing. i dont tell anyone when im upset about it...its like my time is over with. its almost been 2 years, but i can remember it like yesterday. it just sucks. everything jus sucks without her. last year christmas sucked. i got up early...COULDNT OPEN MY PRESENTS till like 1, when lisa got here. i was all dressed and ready by the time i opened my gifts. IT SUCKED. the year before that...me and lisa put our presents under the tree ourselves because my mom was sleeping next to rita on the hospital bed. merry fucking christmas.
almost time for work mother fuckers.
sorry guys...i'll try harder.
i need to redo this whole journal thing, the scenery is getting a little old. dont you agree?
well...a lot of new stuff going on. i got into neumann...or as meme calls it "the dumb dumb school" but oh well. im going there...im going to play soccer for them (hopefully, but almost positive)im excited. i know im making the right decision for myself, even if i am "selling my self short" ill be happy there...even though it is a CATHOLIC college. moving on...
me and phil are together. well...not offically, but whatever. we rnt gunna go through the whole "will you be my girlfriend" thing on the fuckin crazy mouse again. im really happy. not becuz i have a boyfriend, but becuz what we have is great. and i KNOW everyone will say "u were so miserable with him, you always fought, he pisses you off, he's broke...BLAH BLAH BLAH" maybe some of its true...it DOES suck that he's not friends with half of my close friends, oh well. im happy, and i know college is right around the corner...but we will deal with that when it comes. i might be setting myself up for another heartbreak, but...ill get through it...hopefully this time i wont be in denial.
thanksgiving break has been great.
christmas season is always a drag. i dont really tell anyone about it, nor do i let anyone see me upset, but once i hear christmas music...my mind is not thinking about how jingle bells rock. my mind is in a total opposite place...thinking about my sister. i memorized every song from that cd that she played from 2 weeks before thanksgiving till the day she died..24/7...nonstop. every time i hear it on the radio...i get into tears. its just...everything is so different without her. there's no excitement for santa to come, i dont even WANT to see santa on the fire truck this year...its just so depressing. i dont tell anyone when im upset about it...its like my time is over with. its almost been 2 years, but i can remember it like yesterday. it just sucks. everything jus sucks without her. last year christmas sucked. i got up early...COULDNT OPEN MY PRESENTS till like 1, when lisa got here. i was all dressed and ready by the time i opened my gifts. IT SUCKED. the year before that...me and lisa put our presents under the tree ourselves because my mom was sleeping next to rita on the hospital bed. merry fucking christmas.
almost time for work mother fuckers.