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i've seen it sooo often lately.
last couple days have been interesting. foran and wayne got in a fight...which was sooo funny. idk who won...its hard to decide. it was retarded.
i told eric i would dedicate my next entry to him so here it is...eric boucher is my hero. he's my boy n we ride n die together. aint nothin ever gunna come between us...haha, there u go eric.
i had so much fun yesterday. me and jackie went to the hookah bar and met up with sum of her friends. they r so fucking funny. we went to the diner afterwards and had a blast being fatasses. i love jewish people. lol. in addition, (transitional phrase) kevin called ;-)
last night however was quite different from earlier. im the dumbass who called phil and we talked about so much shit and kept fighting and all i wanna do is be kewl with the kid. i fucking miss him and he doesnt even care. yeahhhh if he reads this he'll have sumthin to say to me about it. seriously...so much stuff reminds me of him and it just sucks. i dont miss having a relationship with him, but i miss being his friend. i miss having him in my life. now since hes got his new girlfriend nicole he thinks he doesnt need me anymore. i told him if he hung up the phone with me not trying to fix things then he is throwing away the only person that knows him...the REAL him. no one else knows wut hes going to do before he does it. its just so much bullshit. hearing that he doesnt want to talk 2 me at all jus ripped me apart and i just started crying. he's sucha asshole. if he really cared he would try to fix this. and now since he has her...he thinks he doesnt need me. i seriously cant take all of this shit anymore. i really cant.
i've just been so overwelmed with bullshit that its not even funny. im not talking to my father at all. we havent talked for almost 2 weeks. i cant take this shit anymore. i need to get out...to get away. maybe i should listen to him and "Get the fuck out and take my shit" but i have no where to go. no where to go and no place to hide. i never do. im not as strong as i used to be. ive been breaking down a lot lately and im jus so fucking stressed out.
fuck life.
and you.
hopefully ill do sumthing with kevin, stef, and john tonight. that is...if kevin calls.
i better not hold my breath.
last couple days have been interesting. foran and wayne got in a fight...which was sooo funny. idk who won...its hard to decide. it was retarded.
i told eric i would dedicate my next entry to him so here it is...eric boucher is my hero. he's my boy n we ride n die together. aint nothin ever gunna come between us...haha, there u go eric.
i had so much fun yesterday. me and jackie went to the hookah bar and met up with sum of her friends. they r so fucking funny. we went to the diner afterwards and had a blast being fatasses. i love jewish people. lol. in addition, (transitional phrase) kevin called ;-)
last night however was quite different from earlier. im the dumbass who called phil and we talked about so much shit and kept fighting and all i wanna do is be kewl with the kid. i fucking miss him and he doesnt even care. yeahhhh if he reads this he'll have sumthin to say to me about it. seriously...so much stuff reminds me of him and it just sucks. i dont miss having a relationship with him, but i miss being his friend. i miss having him in my life. now since hes got his new girlfriend nicole he thinks he doesnt need me anymore. i told him if he hung up the phone with me not trying to fix things then he is throwing away the only person that knows him...the REAL him. no one else knows wut hes going to do before he does it. its just so much bullshit. hearing that he doesnt want to talk 2 me at all jus ripped me apart and i just started crying. he's sucha asshole. if he really cared he would try to fix this. and now since he has her...he thinks he doesnt need me. i seriously cant take all of this shit anymore. i really cant.
i've just been so overwelmed with bullshit that its not even funny. im not talking to my father at all. we havent talked for almost 2 weeks. i cant take this shit anymore. i need to get out...to get away. maybe i should listen to him and "Get the fuck out and take my shit" but i have no where to go. no where to go and no place to hide. i never do. im not as strong as i used to be. ive been breaking down a lot lately and im jus so fucking stressed out.
fuck life.
and you.
hopefully ill do sumthing with kevin, stef, and john tonight. that is...if kevin calls.
i better not hold my breath.