things just aren't the way they used to be

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so campus has been pretty strange since sunday. No one is really all that happy. we all just put on our happiest faces, but then as soon as we see a picture or a poster or one of the 5 guys that lives in Briscoe we totaly change our mood and our feelings. On Sunday night a kid named Tony Bossi committed suicide, well at least that is when he was found. I guess some people are saying that it really happened on Friday but his whole suite was gone and didn't find him until sunday. It is horrible to think about and now it is anything anyone thinks about. It has affected soo many people and it's so sad. Mike was really good friends with him and worked with him and he is taking it pretty hard i think, although he might not always let you see that. He used to live on the floor that i live on last year and i am pretty sure a couple of years before that also. My whole floor is upset and I feel terrible because i didn't know him very well and so it is really hard for me to be upset about it. I am upset and sad that it happened, but all of the personal feelings are hard to share with others. I don't know what to say, and i don't even know if i should or need to say anything, but it's still hard. It is one thing that such a promising young guy had to die, but the fact that it was inflicted upon him by himself makes it that much more sad. Suicide is something that is really hard to deal with no matter what the situation. Tonight is a get together for him in the cent. room. Campus just seems so strange. You can tell that the people who are having fun and laughing and whatnot have it secretly in the back of their minds and are dealing with the decision of whether or not they should be in good moods and having fun or not. It is hard to deal with and I have never been in this situation before. Sure I have known people who have killed themselves but they have never been close to me. Usually just my mom's friends who I never met. One very distant family member, but I didn't know them either. Certain events have made this soo hard on Mike and I feel so badly about it all. Hopefully things get better in the near future. I suppose that is all for now though. I have gone on about this more than I should have i'm sure so I will leave you for now. I have some work to do and I need to once again take a nice little road trip to walmart.
byebyefornow!
mackenzieannkelly