Long time no post
God, it's been years. Nearly seven years?
Even though I never wrote anything sad on this journal, I always feel sad when I read them back. Because I was such a sad girl back then. Just a kid, 14 or 15. I'm 21 now and even though it's been such a long fucking journey, I think I'm OK now. I think I'm getting OK. I think I'm not heart broken anymore. I've been clean since March 11 2012, although I slipped up a few times. But if I've learned anything from recovery it's that it's not about a date, it's about a state. A mindset. A shit ton of hard work and effort. And no matter how many people in my life hurt me, especially when I was just a kid, the hardest person to fight has and always will be myself. I've made it to 21 and if I've done that, I feel like I can do anything.
Love n light, hope anyone still around on LJ is doing good.
Lots of love, K.
(ps. if any of you feel like it, you can message me on here for my FB and I'd love to catch up!)
Even though I never wrote anything sad on this journal, I always feel sad when I read them back. Because I was such a sad girl back then. Just a kid, 14 or 15. I'm 21 now and even though it's been such a long fucking journey, I think I'm OK now. I think I'm getting OK. I think I'm not heart broken anymore. I've been clean since March 11 2012, although I slipped up a few times. But if I've learned anything from recovery it's that it's not about a date, it's about a state. A mindset. A shit ton of hard work and effort. And no matter how many people in my life hurt me, especially when I was just a kid, the hardest person to fight has and always will be myself. I've made it to 21 and if I've done that, I feel like I can do anything.
Love n light, hope anyone still around on LJ is doing good.
Lots of love, K.
(ps. if any of you feel like it, you can message me on here for my FB and I'd love to catch up!)