No Holds Barred
Okay--time to go back to school. See ya there.
Here is my long fucking rant. This is directed basically to everyone BUT Jenny, Shawn, AP, Nicole, and Sarah S. When is the last time any of the rest of you gave a flying fuck about me? I'm just so sick of it. I'm so sick of the way you hurt people and the way you ignore everyone but yourselves. Maybe all you guys care about is 'the drama' and all the problems therein. Well I'm sorry, but there's more to life than high school drama and tales of woe. There are important things like friendship and love. Not the shallow kind of friendship that can be hurt by a single mis-said word or the kind of relationship where people have no consideration for the others around them. Callous words, egocentrism, I'm so sick of it all. And as much as I'm angry at you all, I'm even angrier at myself for not saying anything for so long. There are so many people that have been hurt so needlessly by your insensitivity. No--it goes much further than that. Your blatant disreguard for anyone else's feelings. I'm so sick of putting this gently and waiting for you all to get the hint. I'm so sick of listening to people complain about their lives and problems to me and asking me to do things for them when they really don't give two shits if I get run over by a car tomorrow. You don't see because you don't want to see. Haven't you noticed all the people you've hurt? All the ones who thought you were friends and you just tossed them aside when they weren't of use? I know I'm not alone in this. Truthfully, if you're reading this then maybe I'm wrong and you actually do care, at least enough to take five minutes out of your life and read my lj--even venture into the cut. The first cut is the deepest? I don't think so. It's all the ones that keep on piling on top of it. So here's the deal. If you guys want to be friends, fine. I'd really like that. But you have to show it, not just say it. "Rayna, you're the best" isn't going to cut it anymore. Being 'school aquaintances' is fine, but don't lead me to believe you actually care about me if you don't. I have seen too many people cry over your broken promises and spent too much time wondering what's wrong with me, why I've been so forgotten. Winter break taught me something. I have friends who care about me--ones who've been there all along and I've just forgotten all about them. They're the ones that matter, the ones who've been there, tried and true, day after day through everything with me. I don't need to feel alone any more because they'll be there for me, even if none of you are. So here's what I learned over these couple of weeks. It's not me. It's you. So make your decision and make it soon because I'm so sick of being yanked around and even sicker of seeing you do it to those who I care about.
Here is my long fucking rant. This is directed basically to everyone BUT Jenny, Shawn, AP, Nicole, and Sarah S. When is the last time any of the rest of you gave a flying fuck about me? I'm just so sick of it. I'm so sick of the way you hurt people and the way you ignore everyone but yourselves. Maybe all you guys care about is 'the drama' and all the problems therein. Well I'm sorry, but there's more to life than high school drama and tales of woe. There are important things like friendship and love. Not the shallow kind of friendship that can be hurt by a single mis-said word or the kind of relationship where people have no consideration for the others around them. Callous words, egocentrism, I'm so sick of it all. And as much as I'm angry at you all, I'm even angrier at myself for not saying anything for so long. There are so many people that have been hurt so needlessly by your insensitivity. No--it goes much further than that. Your blatant disreguard for anyone else's feelings. I'm so sick of putting this gently and waiting for you all to get the hint. I'm so sick of listening to people complain about their lives and problems to me and asking me to do things for them when they really don't give two shits if I get run over by a car tomorrow. You don't see because you don't want to see. Haven't you noticed all the people you've hurt? All the ones who thought you were friends and you just tossed them aside when they weren't of use? I know I'm not alone in this. Truthfully, if you're reading this then maybe I'm wrong and you actually do care, at least enough to take five minutes out of your life and read my lj--even venture into the cut. The first cut is the deepest? I don't think so. It's all the ones that keep on piling on top of it. So here's the deal. If you guys want to be friends, fine. I'd really like that. But you have to show it, not just say it. "Rayna, you're the best" isn't going to cut it anymore. Being 'school aquaintances' is fine, but don't lead me to believe you actually care about me if you don't. I have seen too many people cry over your broken promises and spent too much time wondering what's wrong with me, why I've been so forgotten. Winter break taught me something. I have friends who care about me--ones who've been there all along and I've just forgotten all about them. They're the ones that matter, the ones who've been there, tried and true, day after day through everything with me. I don't need to feel alone any more because they'll be there for me, even if none of you are. So here's what I learned over these couple of weeks. It's not me. It's you. So make your decision and make it soon because I'm so sick of being yanked around and even sicker of seeing you do it to those who I care about.