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i feel this darkness..not depression. its crept up on me before. it exists way deep inside and appears to enjoy the fear and pain it makes me feel. have to try and not let it win.my arms r still tingly..trying not to cut...
on my way to losing weight now. thats another major change inside of me right now. mayb another 'part' of me has decided to take on that issue..kind of behind the scenes a bit tho..like i woke up and had the urge to look at pro-ana sites and watch movies on ed's...i don't know..i just don't know..everything is just off in me right now. i'm still feeling so nervous....
mayb i can find sumthing on tv..or sumthing....or go back to sleep for a bit....
on my way to losing weight now. thats another major change inside of me right now. mayb another 'part' of me has decided to take on that issue..kind of behind the scenes a bit tho..like i woke up and had the urge to look at pro-ana sites and watch movies on ed's...i don't know..i just don't know..everything is just off in me right now. i'm still feeling so nervous....
mayb i can find sumthing on tv..or sumthing....or go back to sleep for a bit....