Lost
I lost my therapist today. She was the first therapist I have ever seen to ever really help me. Even the way I am handling this shows a marked improvement in my emotional health. I'm sad though and to be honest, I'm going to miss her. I told her, she told me she would miss me too. I sobbed on her floor for quite a long time. I stupidly cut in the bathroom because I felt like I was going to crawl out of my skin. I am afraid of what is next. I just kept telling her I can't do this, "you're doing it right now" she said. I kept saying I wasn't, I kept saying I couldn't, I kept begging her to please not make me do this. "You'll be okay", "you have made a lot of improvements", "we have built the foundation, now you can build on it" I guess we will see. I don't need her, I know I don't but I still think I do need help to keep me on the right track. This is going to be hard but I'm not going to give up, not after everything else I have been through