release your inhibitions feel the rain on your skin
last night my boyfriend told me he was holding back from loving me to the fullest. that was a kick to my gut. i felt so helpless..like i was suddenly nothing to him. i am so in love with jason. i would do anything for him. he thinks i try too hard. all i want to do is love him. it sucks..cause he's in my head constantly. he's who i want to be with. always. and him telling me this made me think that he's been faking what he's been feeling. god that makes me feel horrible. i look at him...and want to kiss him...hold him..all the time. god wherever i'm at and he's not there i feel empty. this morning i'm laying there...looking at him....and i just started crying. :(...i really don't want to feel like this again. i am so in love with him. it's like he doesn't want to believe it. don't i make you happy? i guess it's true that when you fall too hard your heart gets crushed...