Turning Point
What does it mean when you are not in love with a girl but cannnot stop thinking of this girl? Confuse. Spending this weekend alone and isolated has really made me think of a lot of things. I am currently single. I ended things with Amanda and I ended things with a lot of other girls that I was sorta of with. I do not know if I did the right thing. I miss them already. I think it is just me, I can never find love. Or I find love and I miss treat it. Yeah that is what I do. See, I am evil. I do the worse. I make girls fall for me and I leave them in a second. I say the right things at the right time and I know how to be careful in what I say. And girls like that. But I hurt them. I mean Amanda and I were terrific together. We were perfect. But it was not right. She was to rowdy for me. When she would drink, she would get crazy. Plus I still in the back of my mind thought she was still sleeping with her ex. I can tell she was. She would come home late and fall asleep. She was exhausted much of the time. I heard from friends that they caught her kissing him at this store in the mall. I even cheated on her many times. We lost respect for each other. Right now, I do not miss Amanda. I miss my friends. I miss them so much. Erica seems to be busy with her man and school. She is pregnant. She suppose to be due in August. She is having a little boy. Frank, I hardly talk to. He has his own life. His boy is getting big. I am out.