Fic: Pieces, PG-13 (original)
Title: Pieces
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst
Characters: Original characters.
Note: Song fic with original unnamed characters. Criticism welcome.The song "Pieces" is by Rascal Flatts.
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From the moment that we met
My world was turned around, upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around
She remembered the first moment their eyes caught, and she knew this wasn’t going to be last she saw of him before she’d averted her gaze to her fingers woven loosely in her lap. Even right now, she can recall the curve of his jaw, the deep whiskey colour of his eyes, the way the corners of eyes crinkled when he laughed. She’d never wanted anything more in her life then to hold him and have him be hers, to crawl into his lap and curl up there.
Girl I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times
Warmth curled inside of her chest, around her lungs and down to her stomach with every sip she took, until things were a little hazy and a little fuzzy and just a little bit more than she bargained for. She didn’t mind though, when he curled up beside her under the covers and her heart started thumping in her ears. He threw a leg around her hip and she tentatively nuzzled her nose into his neck, inhaling the delicious and intoxicating smell of the scotch on his breath, and his cologne, and his sweet musky masculine smell. Her head was spinning a little and her hands were clammy but when he pulled her closer, she held her hand gently to his face and traced his jaw, touching the stubble on his chin lightly. Biting her lip, she traced the curve of his lower lip with the tip of her index finger as he watched her with those fathomless eyes. He slipped a hand behind her neck and nudged her closer, even though she could feel the heat of his skin touching her everywhere. His lips pressed to hers and her heart leapt as their mouths whispered over one another in the dark.
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you lookin
There's nothin left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces, in pieces
She clearly remembered the day he walked in, holding the other girl’s hand, as the first day of the rest of her personal nightmare. Pain clawed at her heart, and tears pricked the back of her eyes, a lump forming in her throat. She held it in until later, when she could be alone, so no one would have to witness her shame for loving someone so unattainable and feeling like the played fool. She had set herself up for disappointment so many times, so why should it hurt anymore when she knew what was coming?
Someone let you down again
So you turn to me, your convenient friend
Oh but I know what you're doin
And what you hope to find
I've seen a thousand times
Yet whenever he came crawling back, she was always there for him, because of the lure of being around him. She would take what she could get, even though she couldn’t expect anything in return. She cradles the memories she has of her consoling him, being the best friend she could be, as she wiped the tears out of his eyes with her thumbs gently. She pats his back and inhales, holding him in her lungs until it’s physically painful and she has to let go.
All the fire we had before
Are now just bitter ashes
Left scattered on the floor
The day she lost was the day she couldn’t take it anymore, sobbing and screaming as he looked on, feeling remorseful, but only because he finally realized he couldn’t have everything he wanted. She hurt because she lost him even though she never had him, but most of all she hurt because she was so stupid. She couldn’t be his backup anymore. Her fists clenched, nails biting into her palms, she gritted her teeth, choked back a sob and walked out, for the first and last time, on him.
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you lookin
There's nothin left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces