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Lots to update about to start however I just need to get a few things down that I want to remember.
Im starting to come to terms with the fact that people think im pretty, I still dotn see it in myself, but I can at least deal with the fact that other people do. In a heartwrenching conversation with ronald I realized why I find it so hard to accept how I look, and also maybe why others find it so pleaseing. Maybe Im wrong here but Ive never really met another person who looks like me. Most people can say that they look like someone else, or that they have so and sos eyes. Ive never really gotten that, Ive never seen someone and thought, oh cool, we have the same features. Its hard to find the way you look pleasing if its not something you see often, my face still looks strange to me. Is that why other people think it is appealing, because it is a change from the norm? I guess what it comes down to is that I need to come to terms with how I look, and slowly step by step I am doing that.
Im going to do one of those things where you say something to everyone as soon as I get a chance to. Im hoping I wont choke up too much because well, graduation is coming, and its killing me inside.
Im starting to come to terms with the fact that people think im pretty, I still dotn see it in myself, but I can at least deal with the fact that other people do. In a heartwrenching conversation with ronald I realized why I find it so hard to accept how I look, and also maybe why others find it so pleaseing. Maybe Im wrong here but Ive never really met another person who looks like me. Most people can say that they look like someone else, or that they have so and sos eyes. Ive never really gotten that, Ive never seen someone and thought, oh cool, we have the same features. Its hard to find the way you look pleasing if its not something you see often, my face still looks strange to me. Is that why other people think it is appealing, because it is a change from the norm? I guess what it comes down to is that I need to come to terms with how I look, and slowly step by step I am doing that.
Im going to do one of those things where you say something to everyone as soon as I get a chance to. Im hoping I wont choke up too much because well, graduation is coming, and its killing me inside.