Hmmm...
Once again, i havent updated this at all for a very long time... a for those who care or are just simply interested here is a treat. Whatev lol
I dont know whats going on right now... feels like im losing contact with my friends and all im doing is working and spending time with merranda ( Dont get me wrong i love her to death and we are going to spend the rest of our lives together happy =P ) But i just cant find that little core of happyness... I do not know what I am missing or whats going on. I have the wierdest mood swings from like really happy to reclusive, anti-social, and just upset over nothing. The sings fall perfectly in line with chronic depression but i dont think that is the case but it seems like it... i dont have any control of my emotions anymore. Things just happen. But I have a wonderful girl to hold onto and keep me standing.
I hate working, the job is fine and the people are nice but i hate working... lol but i will have to do this kind of stuff for the rest of my life so gotta get used to it now.
On a better note Im going to ceader point with my family and taking merranda =) that is going to be amazing.. I need to see her and hold her =) *kisses and cuddles* ehehe
I dont know what else to say... oh yeah
I am going to JCC now... =) Lots of reasons, dont ask, dont feel like telling. Hm?
I dont know whats going on right now... feels like im losing contact with my friends and all im doing is working and spending time with merranda ( Dont get me wrong i love her to death and we are going to spend the rest of our lives together happy =P ) But i just cant find that little core of happyness... I do not know what I am missing or whats going on. I have the wierdest mood swings from like really happy to reclusive, anti-social, and just upset over nothing. The sings fall perfectly in line with chronic depression but i dont think that is the case but it seems like it... i dont have any control of my emotions anymore. Things just happen. But I have a wonderful girl to hold onto and keep me standing.
I hate working, the job is fine and the people are nice but i hate working... lol but i will have to do this kind of stuff for the rest of my life so gotta get used to it now.
On a better note Im going to ceader point with my family and taking merranda =) that is going to be amazing.. I need to see her and hold her =) *kisses and cuddles* ehehe
I dont know what else to say... oh yeah
I am going to JCC now... =) Lots of reasons, dont ask, dont feel like telling. Hm?