What about now?
i value my privacy to an incredibly insane extent these days. i hate being disturbed, dislike feeling like somebody has just invaded my personal space or my quality alone time. why are humans so insensitive lately? i'm getting calls relating to work even when i'm ill at home. even when i've made it SO clear that i need my rest.
work has made me realized i love studying so much more. i can't find interest in the same field that i slogged three years for. today, i questioned myself over what it is that i really wanted back then. is it the glamour that tags along with this industry, or is it my real heartfelt interest that drives me? sometimes i feel this is so unlike me, i can't stand holding conversations with strangers or people i don't feel comfortable around. and i detest having to write about things i don't believe in and create a facade like its the greatest thing ever. burned-out is the word right now.
i would very much hope to be one of those who hold a strong passion towards their job and not be a quitter. at the end of the day, its really all about finding out what do i really want to be. yet as of now, what i really wish to do is just head back to school and start everything anew. the society makes me a cynic, it gradually turns me into what i don't want to be. now, i just want to believe in the goodwill of humanity all over again.
and my mum understands me so well. she knows the reason i have plans to be a student all over again is because i don't wish to face the world.
work has made me realized i love studying so much more. i can't find interest in the same field that i slogged three years for. today, i questioned myself over what it is that i really wanted back then. is it the glamour that tags along with this industry, or is it my real heartfelt interest that drives me? sometimes i feel this is so unlike me, i can't stand holding conversations with strangers or people i don't feel comfortable around. and i detest having to write about things i don't believe in and create a facade like its the greatest thing ever. burned-out is the word right now.
i would very much hope to be one of those who hold a strong passion towards their job and not be a quitter. at the end of the day, its really all about finding out what do i really want to be. yet as of now, what i really wish to do is just head back to school and start everything anew. the society makes me a cynic, it gradually turns me into what i don't want to be. now, i just want to believe in the goodwill of humanity all over again.
and my mum understands me so well. she knows the reason i have plans to be a student all over again is because i don't wish to face the world.