god wanted to see your wisedom
why were the last thing i said to you was i want some of that bread? why couldnt it have been better and been i love you. i swear i would have given you my heart and took the broke one, i would have taken your pain if it would mean i could see you happy again. you were to perfect for this unperfect world and god wanted to see your beauty and hear your jokes and your funny stories and eat your good food. i wish you could know how much you meant to me, 89 perfect years on this earth 71 spent with an amazing man who loves you more then you could ever think. i wish i would have gone with mommy to take you home on monday im going to miss our weekly dinners together and your funny stories at the dinner table, ill miss hearing your voice, and touching your hands even if they were a little wrinkly. you were perfect inside and out there was not an ugly thing about you. i would give you my body and take the broken one if i thought it would mean i could see you again and tell you i love you. i regret not telling you how much you meant to me before you left, but instead of replying with an i love you too i talked about bread, what was i thinking? gam gam you were the best we all love you and miss you more then you think and i know that i wasnt the nicest person to you at times but the past few years we've gotten so close and now god ripped it away to soon, why couldnt he have waited a few more years just so you can see me graduate and get married, so my kids can experience your perfectness. i feel stupid by saying this but god was very selfish in taking you away from me tonight. ill see you soon gam gam i promise ill never forget you...im sorry i didnt let you know how much i love you