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I suppose the question of this age is how to balance the self I aspire to be with the self I admired most when I was younger. It's hard to remember anything about that self except what it felt like when I was able to be her. I haven't been in that context for a long time. I feel like I'll be happier as her than as some of the things I've been aspiring to lately, but it's hard to remember that in the day to day.