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I hate how dumb people can be sometimes.
I always feel obligated to do the "right" thing, but it always blows up in my mother fucking face. I should just give up on trying. I just make things worse. Blah.
I hate this. I HATE IT!! People are just being so dumb, and I always have to be caught up in it somehow, I can't just be *away* from it.
I don't know how I manage to have a random crash of happiness. I could blame it on the bipolar, but that's just not owning up to it. Something has to be up...
I'm sorry for anyone I have caused problems for when trying to help out. I only meant the best. Obviously, it didn't work as I had planned.
I feel like I'm falling behind in school, which is damn hard considering I go to fucking MTS. I just can't concentrate anymore, my mind is too cluttered with petty bullshit.
I want to run away to New York. Then it would all be better. I wish he were here. Having someone to be with would be far too amazing. If I did anything with someone other than him, I would feel guilty like I always do.
I just wish I could have someone until I can have him. I'm too afraid something might turn serious though. Damnit.
I wanna go back to Bayport, there are cool kids there. They make me giggle, unlike most of the people here. Keeping close friends for a long stretch of time seems to be quite impossible for me.
I really like how I have started all my sentences with I. Can I think about anything other than myself?
I want to go draw or something, and blast my music. That usually helps a lot. I think I should go back to Bayport and check into this Matt diggin' me thing. There could be a worth-while thing there, something good to hold me over... Does it sound like I would be using him?
I am going to drive myself insane with all this crap. Damnit, damnit.
*Whatever happened to Wonderful?*
I always feel obligated to do the "right" thing, but it always blows up in my mother fucking face. I should just give up on trying. I just make things worse. Blah.
I hate this. I HATE IT!! People are just being so dumb, and I always have to be caught up in it somehow, I can't just be *away* from it.
I don't know how I manage to have a random crash of happiness. I could blame it on the bipolar, but that's just not owning up to it. Something has to be up...
I'm sorry for anyone I have caused problems for when trying to help out. I only meant the best. Obviously, it didn't work as I had planned.
I feel like I'm falling behind in school, which is damn hard considering I go to fucking MTS. I just can't concentrate anymore, my mind is too cluttered with petty bullshit.
I want to run away to New York. Then it would all be better. I wish he were here. Having someone to be with would be far too amazing. If I did anything with someone other than him, I would feel guilty like I always do.
I just wish I could have someone until I can have him. I'm too afraid something might turn serious though. Damnit.
I wanna go back to Bayport, there are cool kids there. They make me giggle, unlike most of the people here. Keeping close friends for a long stretch of time seems to be quite impossible for me.
I really like how I have started all my sentences with I. Can I think about anything other than myself?
I want to go draw or something, and blast my music. That usually helps a lot. I think I should go back to Bayport and check into this Matt diggin' me thing. There could be a worth-while thing there, something good to hold me over... Does it sound like I would be using him?
I am going to drive myself insane with all this crap. Damnit, damnit.
*Whatever happened to Wonderful?*