Jul 09, 2007 12:22
So I am in Nebraska right now visiting one of my TCU friends and believe it or not I am having an absolute blast! Sometimes I think it is nice to just get away from the world you are used to and be thrown into something you know nothing about. That's why I picked the college I did after all. I wanted a change... which has lead me to thinking about things in my life as of now and I have come to a few conclusions about things...
1. I hate people who judge others based on things they can't control like skin color, family, and wealth. Being less well off than someone else does not make you less of a person.
2. I dislike drama very much. If you think you have a dramatic life, figure out your crap and get on with it. Dwelling on issues never solved anything. Either make an attempt to do something or shut up about it.
3. I don't like that I'm starting to fade from some of the people who hold a special place in my heart. I know life moves on and we all grow up and sometimes away from each other, but I wish it didn't have to be like that.
4. I am scared to death of this coming year. I already know that my heart is going to be hurting some and things are going to change drastically. I am scared of all my friends turning 21 and not knowing how I will deal with that and I am scared of what's going to happen between me and a certain boy.
5. I'm starting to realize that my house is not my house anymore. It's my parents house and that makes me sad. I want to be in high school again, when I knew that I always had my house to return to.
6. I love music. Any kind. I like just listening to music and playing games with friends, or just listening to music while laying outside.
7. I should have been a fish. I love the water and being in it. It feels so natural to me.
8. Dancing is something that I think I'm pretty good at, but I wish that I looked as sexy as I feel when I dance. And I wish that I could dance how I want with Thomas. He doesn't really like dancing to R&B type stuff which is what I think you can really move to.
9. I want to get married some day, but I am scared to death that I will make the wrong decision in the person I choose to marry. I don't want to get divorced and I don't want to have worry about my marriage possibly falling apart or not.
10. I like crying sometimes. For no reason other than it feels good. It's just a way to release pressure and stress in my life. Whether brought on by a good song, movie, or simple moment in life, I don't think crying is always a bad thing.
I think that's it for now. I just felt like writing. Hope this didn't bore you too much, if you chose to read it.