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you know i try so fucking hard all the time to please them...but you know what...whatever i do, it always in never good enough, or they always see the bad in everything. i do my chores, i keep my room clean, i get up on time, i am almost never late, and i try my hardest at just about everything...but is that good enough?? no! it is never good enough. to them i do my chores wrong, my room isnt clean enough, they think i wont wake up in time, they get mad at me because i am early, and i never try hard enough... i know i have thought of the whole "why even bother" thing, but i get in even more trouble with that. i will never be good enough for them...never. i haven't been this tempted to cut myself in a long time...but instead i will just take some sleeping pills, and just hope to never wake up agin...i doubt they will miss me if i dont.