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OH myyyyyyyy
I'm alive. exhausted and spent though. I'm not sure I've ever had as many hours of rehearsal in one week ever. Not even candlelight weeks!!!
Yes, aaggggaaaaaiiiiiiinnnnnn it's been a long time since I updated.
I've been spending almost allllll of my time awake at school and much less time sitting and sleeping at my cold apartment.
(I sent and note to my landlord today with my rent check, asking that he please turn up the heat or check out my radiators since I've been sick a lot and cold even more- I came home tonight to a roasty apt :)!!!!)
Life is unbelieveably hectic this month- hence the never being on AIM, never updating, hardly picking up my phone.
I love my flute. I love orchestra.
But I am sooooo done with going to class. I have been such a hmwk procrastinator all year. Quintet has been a battle all semester, but it's almost done. Clarinet players man.... good ones are few and far between in this city. I decided (after much hemming) that I was not going to apply for any DMA's AD's or PS's. I don't want to attend classes anymore although I'm certainly not against learning a lot more. I also don't want to acquire much more debt than I already have thanks to the past two years ahahha. I ended up applying to school again here to see how much money they would scholarship me for next year, but they are not real generous even to their most wanted students (which doesn't include me anyway ahhaha). So we'll see...... mainly, I just want to continue to study with my teacher (who continues to be completely amazingly unreal). It's a lot cheaper to do that individually than through the tuition!!!! I still don't know how I feel about not being in school. I am scared for sure. Real world stuff is scary.
My immediate life and health has changed a lot these past few months. I check my email only like 6 times a day now (pretty low comparatively) and I have had a lot less time to eat. I have been eating less.... which my stomach is not happy about, and you'd all probably be taken back by the lack of choices in my refrigerator and snack rack. It's a strange phenomenon which I undoubtably need to alter. I am back on inhalers due to a pretty bad 'asthma flair up' about a month ago so my lungs get drugged up twice everyday. Not albuterol unless it's real bad though. Then I had like three colds in the span of like 7 weeks and ended up skipping a lot of class in order to be able to actually practice flute haahaha. Who knows why I had so many colds- I never touch the pianos ahhaha. Practice rooms are so dirty.
Flute is coming along. My second recital was pretty awesome. I had a blast and for the most part, I was pleased with how it turned out. I definitely neglected the Vivaldi a little too much but.... I learned my lesson. My (mermaid) purple dress was a hit, again hahaha and went pretty well with the Reinecke- ahha can't beat a $21 clearance purchase! I'm just as obsessed as ever with the minidisc recording too.... horrible.
It was a frustrating day. Sustaining loudly for long periods of time on the flute is not really my specialty (although it has gotten better...). It never will be BUT I will have to get over my frustration so I can actually improve this matter further. My big thing today was that I let myself believe I am not able to make it work- when in actuality, I should be more optimistic and prove to myself that it's not as hard as my brain tricks me into thinking. I already wrote about it in my lesson journal and my flute journal, which made me realize how I missed ljing once in a while.
I have one exam and several performances but then I'm done for the semester. I passed my comp exams so I am all set to graduate after my lessons in the spring ahhaha!! whoooohoooooooooo
Lets see.... back to VT on the 19th, down to the city on the 21st or 22nd to see Wicked (FINALLY!) and the RCMH Christmas show!!!!!!! So exciting! Back to VT until the 7th of 2008 holy crap.
I'm alive. exhausted and spent though. I'm not sure I've ever had as many hours of rehearsal in one week ever. Not even candlelight weeks!!!
Yes, aaggggaaaaaiiiiiiinnnnnn it's been a long time since I updated.
I've been spending almost allllll of my time awake at school and much less time sitting and sleeping at my cold apartment.
(I sent and note to my landlord today with my rent check, asking that he please turn up the heat or check out my radiators since I've been sick a lot and cold even more- I came home tonight to a roasty apt :)!!!!)
Life is unbelieveably hectic this month- hence the never being on AIM, never updating, hardly picking up my phone.
I love my flute. I love orchestra.
But I am sooooo done with going to class. I have been such a hmwk procrastinator all year. Quintet has been a battle all semester, but it's almost done. Clarinet players man.... good ones are few and far between in this city. I decided (after much hemming) that I was not going to apply for any DMA's AD's or PS's. I don't want to attend classes anymore although I'm certainly not against learning a lot more. I also don't want to acquire much more debt than I already have thanks to the past two years ahahha. I ended up applying to school again here to see how much money they would scholarship me for next year, but they are not real generous even to their most wanted students (which doesn't include me anyway ahhaha). So we'll see...... mainly, I just want to continue to study with my teacher (who continues to be completely amazingly unreal). It's a lot cheaper to do that individually than through the tuition!!!! I still don't know how I feel about not being in school. I am scared for sure. Real world stuff is scary.
My immediate life and health has changed a lot these past few months. I check my email only like 6 times a day now (pretty low comparatively) and I have had a lot less time to eat. I have been eating less.... which my stomach is not happy about, and you'd all probably be taken back by the lack of choices in my refrigerator and snack rack. It's a strange phenomenon which I undoubtably need to alter. I am back on inhalers due to a pretty bad 'asthma flair up' about a month ago so my lungs get drugged up twice everyday. Not albuterol unless it's real bad though. Then I had like three colds in the span of like 7 weeks and ended up skipping a lot of class in order to be able to actually practice flute haahaha. Who knows why I had so many colds- I never touch the pianos ahhaha. Practice rooms are so dirty.
Flute is coming along. My second recital was pretty awesome. I had a blast and for the most part, I was pleased with how it turned out. I definitely neglected the Vivaldi a little too much but.... I learned my lesson. My (mermaid) purple dress was a hit, again hahaha and went pretty well with the Reinecke- ahha can't beat a $21 clearance purchase! I'm just as obsessed as ever with the minidisc recording too.... horrible.
It was a frustrating day. Sustaining loudly for long periods of time on the flute is not really my specialty (although it has gotten better...). It never will be BUT I will have to get over my frustration so I can actually improve this matter further. My big thing today was that I let myself believe I am not able to make it work- when in actuality, I should be more optimistic and prove to myself that it's not as hard as my brain tricks me into thinking. I already wrote about it in my lesson journal and my flute journal, which made me realize how I missed ljing once in a while.
I have one exam and several performances but then I'm done for the semester. I passed my comp exams so I am all set to graduate after my lessons in the spring ahhaha!! whoooohoooooooooo
Lets see.... back to VT on the 19th, down to the city on the 21st or 22nd to see Wicked (FINALLY!) and the RCMH Christmas show!!!!!!! So exciting! Back to VT until the 7th of 2008 holy crap.