1 year tomorrow...
1 Year ago tomorrow...you came into my life...asked me, i said yes..we became happy with eachother..right after rehersal...nothing else mattered to me, because i had you right there and then...seeing your smiling face asking me to be yours, i didnt care about anything, or anyone else but you.
A couple months went by...we loved eachother so much, i still never wanted to let you go, you always told me, "I love you so much" and that one time when we were at your house...i started crying, you didnt know why, and then i told you "I dont know what i would do if i ever lost you vince.." and then we just hugged for ever..and you told me "Don't worry, everything is going to be ok."
The 6th month came around, we were so happy, because it was half a year...we couldnt beileve it, but we were so happy...i remember..every month we always gave eachother flowers, cd's , just gifts...i loved yours because they were always necklaces and flowers...you made me feel happy because i knew someone acually loved me that much...
Then...the 8-9th month comes around...we were at emilys birthday party, there was something wrong with you, and we just walked down the street over and over again, and i just start crying becuase you said "We'll see what happens in the next couple of weeks..." Then i just hugged you...crying so much...not letting go at all, saying how much i love you, and i dont want to loose you, because of how much you mean to me...then we went back to emilys and you said to me "We just had to talk that's all." and i said "Does that mean were not waiting and everythings ok?" you said "yes, and you smiled at me....
10th month...we were at bree's, final fantasy 7 music was playing in the background..you said to me "We need to talk.." then you told me "this isnt working out, we should just be friends." and you knew how crushed i would be...i could not stop crying...i just wouldnt let go of you, because i knew that would be the last time that i would ever touch you..i just hated myself...i knew it was my fault...i just knew it, even when you said it wasnt..i knew i did everything wrong...you said to me "We'll be best friends, your going to be my best friend, we'll talk and hang out a lot, dont worry." but i did worry, because i knew that...that wasnt going to happen....then, we said goodbye to eachother, and kissed one last...final time...which i wanted to last forever...then we stopped...and i just remember looking at your face...then your mom came to the door...we were still holding hands..and you said goodbye...and i wouldnt let go..and when we did..i knew that i was alone, and that i lost something that i love dearly..and that it would never come back to me ever again...i couldnt stop crying at all...im crying from writing this all, i still cry every night..
I changed a whole lot for you...that's how much i care about you, im not a controlling jealous bitch anymore...Vince..everytime i saw your face, your smiling face, i knew that i had something that i needed to hang onto, and just never let you go...you made me so happy...i know people say that we're too young to be in love...but im not anymore..when i was going out with you, everyday i realized how much i was lucky...how much i loved you, how much i never wanted you to go...im not happy, i just act like it...because i can never be happy without you at all...you were my life..i feel so empty now..i feel like im not supposed to be in this world..im not going to do anything stupid dont worry...but..i feel like i have no life at all...you were my life...all im saying..
I want you back...you are my everything..
I remember you wrote me a note in school, and it was based off of a blink 182 song you wrote... "Let's make this last forever.." and i was hoping we would...now everytime i hear our songs "I miss you" and "Im lost without you." by Blink 182, i can do nothing but cry...vince..i changed just for you...your my life...your my everything...you think that id be happier without you?...no! im not at all, im depressed, and sad, and mad because i know it was me the whole time that did something wrong..i changed though..i changed for you..now you wont even talk to me at all...i feel so empty and lifeless...i want you back...
*Sometimes i wonder...do you ever miss me?...even the slightest bit?*
**~**Tiffany K. Parker**~**
A couple months went by...we loved eachother so much, i still never wanted to let you go, you always told me, "I love you so much" and that one time when we were at your house...i started crying, you didnt know why, and then i told you "I dont know what i would do if i ever lost you vince.." and then we just hugged for ever..and you told me "Don't worry, everything is going to be ok."
The 6th month came around, we were so happy, because it was half a year...we couldnt beileve it, but we were so happy...i remember..every month we always gave eachother flowers, cd's , just gifts...i loved yours because they were always necklaces and flowers...you made me feel happy because i knew someone acually loved me that much...
Then...the 8-9th month comes around...we were at emilys birthday party, there was something wrong with you, and we just walked down the street over and over again, and i just start crying becuase you said "We'll see what happens in the next couple of weeks..." Then i just hugged you...crying so much...not letting go at all, saying how much i love you, and i dont want to loose you, because of how much you mean to me...then we went back to emilys and you said to me "We just had to talk that's all." and i said "Does that mean were not waiting and everythings ok?" you said "yes, and you smiled at me....
10th month...we were at bree's, final fantasy 7 music was playing in the background..you said to me "We need to talk.." then you told me "this isnt working out, we should just be friends." and you knew how crushed i would be...i could not stop crying...i just wouldnt let go of you, because i knew that would be the last time that i would ever touch you..i just hated myself...i knew it was my fault...i just knew it, even when you said it wasnt..i knew i did everything wrong...you said to me "We'll be best friends, your going to be my best friend, we'll talk and hang out a lot, dont worry." but i did worry, because i knew that...that wasnt going to happen....then, we said goodbye to eachother, and kissed one last...final time...which i wanted to last forever...then we stopped...and i just remember looking at your face...then your mom came to the door...we were still holding hands..and you said goodbye...and i wouldnt let go..and when we did..i knew that i was alone, and that i lost something that i love dearly..and that it would never come back to me ever again...i couldnt stop crying at all...im crying from writing this all, i still cry every night..
I changed a whole lot for you...that's how much i care about you, im not a controlling jealous bitch anymore...Vince..everytime i saw your face, your smiling face, i knew that i had something that i needed to hang onto, and just never let you go...you made me so happy...i know people say that we're too young to be in love...but im not anymore..when i was going out with you, everyday i realized how much i was lucky...how much i loved you, how much i never wanted you to go...im not happy, i just act like it...because i can never be happy without you at all...you were my life..i feel so empty now..i feel like im not supposed to be in this world..im not going to do anything stupid dont worry...but..i feel like i have no life at all...you were my life...all im saying..
I want you back...you are my everything..
I remember you wrote me a note in school, and it was based off of a blink 182 song you wrote... "Let's make this last forever.." and i was hoping we would...now everytime i hear our songs "I miss you" and "Im lost without you." by Blink 182, i can do nothing but cry...vince..i changed just for you...your my life...your my everything...you think that id be happier without you?...no! im not at all, im depressed, and sad, and mad because i know it was me the whole time that did something wrong..i changed though..i changed for you..now you wont even talk to me at all...i feel so empty and lifeless...i want you back...
*Sometimes i wonder...do you ever miss me?...even the slightest bit?*
**~**Tiffany K. Parker**~**