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wow....its been darn near a month since i last updatd....well life has been good....went to natalies house on friday....had lots o' fun...i luvd seein kris get nervous as two men pesterd him at publix....funny....and joannas rap impressions....and natalie....her funniness and her smile....wut more can b askd for. sooo....today i had sum time to ponder on the metromover and i was thinkin that mayb its finally time for a change.... i need to stop bein soo hard on myself when it cums to music....its only settin me back becuz when im mad at myself i have no patience for myself and therefore i dont work at my best or at all for that matter...i figurd that i cant play everything....but i do admit that there r things that i should b able to play but i cant....soo im just goin to have to play the catch-up-game....not the get-mad-at-yourslef-and-not-wanna-play-anymore-game...its only logical...but of course at a time of emotion u tend to b irrational...its only expectd....so im goin to ask God for strength to achieve the goals i set for myself(musically)....which brings me to another point...i need to get more in touch my god....i believe ive vergd far far far away from the glory of God....i was talkin to myself the other day and im like....Man!!....howd i let myself get soo worldly?....and i feel that its the people that surround me (past and present)(not to blame them for everything)...so im tryin to distance myslef a bit....and consequently place myself amoung those with whom i can fellowship....sooo tomorro is FCAT writin and tennis lessons....ones goin to make me happy and ones goin to make me sad....and mad....and bored out of my life....u cnat figure out which onell do which... ugggg!.....so valentines day is fast approachin and i have plans for wut im goin to get and who it is that im goin to get it for but i gotta start workin on it.....life is full with stuff....the good and the bad...ttul....enjoyd this entry