in need of resolve
I would like to be able to say I have never stooped very low to hurt people that have hurt me, but in the past, I have let my emotions get the best of me. This time I won't. I'm trying to be the bigger person here, and it's kiiiiilling me.
I'm excited to have an apartment, but I'm upset about leaving this place. Never before have I felt so comfortable so quickly with strangers. The allergy shots are making my allergies worse, and I haven't been helping much (I am going to miss the cats so much, and I still play with them even though I know it's hurting me!). This has been a strange journey. I lost a friend in the process but gained two really great friends. I don't mean to be getting mushy... It's not like I won't ever see them again, but it's still hard.
But the friend I lost... Doesn't seem to care. And that is sad. You know, after you go through so much shit with a person, you would think they might understand you, and respect you enough to stop doing something that is obviously deteriorating your friendship. Whatever. I hate being so indifferent about it, but I was pushed to this point.
Sometimes you just have to cut off an arm to save yourself from losing more.
I feel like I've lost enough already.
I'm excited to have an apartment, but I'm upset about leaving this place. Never before have I felt so comfortable so quickly with strangers. The allergy shots are making my allergies worse, and I haven't been helping much (I am going to miss the cats so much, and I still play with them even though I know it's hurting me!). This has been a strange journey. I lost a friend in the process but gained two really great friends. I don't mean to be getting mushy... It's not like I won't ever see them again, but it's still hard.
But the friend I lost... Doesn't seem to care. And that is sad. You know, after you go through so much shit with a person, you would think they might understand you, and respect you enough to stop doing something that is obviously deteriorating your friendship. Whatever. I hate being so indifferent about it, but I was pushed to this point.
Sometimes you just have to cut off an arm to save yourself from losing more.
I feel like I've lost enough already.