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You know what? I think I might actually start using this LJ. As in actually writing stuff in it.
Why?
Because I'm freaking bored with life and I have nothing better to do with my time. I'd better get that damn job at the bank, if only to have something to do. Two interviews seems promising, right? I was sort of quiet and stupid at the second one though... But there were two of them! It was more intimidating.
And the fat one kept glaring at me.
And yes I know I over use the italics but I don't freaking care.
...So there.
And I'm pissed because my folks went to Caputo's in Chicago and they didn't get me any salami! The salami there is damn good and I won't get any at all. =( No, they just got stinky old mortadella which they can get at Marsh anytime.
I feel proud. My first official random LJ rant. Haha!
And the funny part? There's not even anyone to read this. I guess it can be theraputic or something. You know what? I think I'm onto something here...
I hate religion. I hope my parents get a divorce. I hope my dad falls on his head and recovers his sanity. I wish my brother wasn't so distant. I wish I didn't idolize my brother like I do. I wish I could get rid of this guilt I have for things I can't help or change. I wish I didn't think so much. I wish I wasn't such a coward. I wish I was eighteen now so I could smoke a freaking cigarette. I wish my eighteen year old friends would be pals and buy me cigarettes anyway. I wish I was just a little better at something, anything. I wish I had a talent, any talent. I wish I wasn't so afraid of change. I wish I wasn't such a dumbass as to need to rant to myself to make myself feel better. I hope this stupid rant will pull me out of my comfortable litle puddle of self pity so I can make myself a tasty chai latte before I go to sleep.
Why?
Because I'm freaking bored with life and I have nothing better to do with my time. I'd better get that damn job at the bank, if only to have something to do. Two interviews seems promising, right? I was sort of quiet and stupid at the second one though... But there were two of them! It was more intimidating.
And the fat one kept glaring at me.
And yes I know I over use the italics but I don't freaking care.
...So there.
And I'm pissed because my folks went to Caputo's in Chicago and they didn't get me any salami! The salami there is damn good and I won't get any at all. =( No, they just got stinky old mortadella which they can get at Marsh anytime.
I feel proud. My first official random LJ rant. Haha!
And the funny part? There's not even anyone to read this. I guess it can be theraputic or something. You know what? I think I'm onto something here...
I hate religion. I hope my parents get a divorce. I hope my dad falls on his head and recovers his sanity. I wish my brother wasn't so distant. I wish I didn't idolize my brother like I do. I wish I could get rid of this guilt I have for things I can't help or change. I wish I didn't think so much. I wish I wasn't such a coward. I wish I was eighteen now so I could smoke a freaking cigarette. I wish my eighteen year old friends would be pals and buy me cigarettes anyway. I wish I was just a little better at something, anything. I wish I had a talent, any talent. I wish I wasn't so afraid of change. I wish I wasn't such a dumbass as to need to rant to myself to make myself feel better. I hope this stupid rant will pull me out of my comfortable litle puddle of self pity so I can make myself a tasty chai latte before I go to sleep.