So I havent updated in a while and this really isnt an update just the same old, same old

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Where is that person? That person who will complete me, make me feel whole. The person who will make me look forward to waking up everyday, to coming home every day after work. I have not found this person apparently and wonder if I ever will. If it makes me weak that I feel the need for this companionship so be it, I dont really care. I do know however that I grow tired of this life alone. I feel a little more enlightened as to why I may avoid human contact as of late. Whenever I do spend time with friends it does make the time spent at home a little less bearable. I went to the bar tonight with some friends which is noteworthy. I usually do little else besides work sleep and play games. Why am I alone? Is it a result of my own choices? I do admit I am not too keen on the idea of dating for the sake of dating and most people I have been interested in I knew right away were special. It is not for lack of girls whom I find physically attractive. As far as looks go I'd be satisfied with someone who didn't make me cringe when I look ate her. So am I forced to wait for a person whom I find special? They are few and far between and those who reciprocate my feelings even more so. What am I to do with my feelings in the meantime? What if I never find this peron? I fear I have watched too many movies, perhaps the woman I seek does not exist in this day and age. Or any other for that matter.

P.S. - little drunk right now