I'm gonna take it from here...
Just returned from New Jersey/Philadelphia. It was nice, kind of. I'm pretty much the annoying fat girl now and that bites. I'm not funny or clever or whatever it is that makes people around here like me when I'm around them. I'm drained from trying so hard to make these people love me. And they probably do anyway, I just can't see it.
Anyway, we were crazy Episcopalians and partied a little harder than we should have. Well, a lot harder actually. I hung out with some crazy Jersey kids who love to tell stories, planned a national event somewhere in there too. I'm glad to be home though. In my bed, not thinking about how I look to these other people all the time. They brought pictures from a meeting we had last year in North Carolina and I look damn skinny in them. It's amazing, I remember thinking I looked like shit on that trip and now I see them and I'm like actually thin. and I just waisted it and now I miss it and can't stand living in this body. Thereforem good bye body du jour, thanks for nothin' I'm going back to that pretty smiling girl that everyone liked and listened to.
Anyway, we were crazy Episcopalians and partied a little harder than we should have. Well, a lot harder actually. I hung out with some crazy Jersey kids who love to tell stories, planned a national event somewhere in there too. I'm glad to be home though. In my bed, not thinking about how I look to these other people all the time. They brought pictures from a meeting we had last year in North Carolina and I look damn skinny in them. It's amazing, I remember thinking I looked like shit on that trip and now I see them and I'm like actually thin. and I just waisted it and now I miss it and can't stand living in this body. Thereforem good bye body du jour, thanks for nothin' I'm going back to that pretty smiling girl that everyone liked and listened to.