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[fluffyturkey]

as much as this may shock u i find my self short of things to update about and unmotivated to do so. but for all of you fans out there i wouldnt want to dissapoint you so i suppose i should give u a little taste of update to keep u happy. well let me start off by saying that i had an awesome weekend!!! Des was awesome, he is such a great speaker!!!! he was so funny and easy to listen to and u could actually understand him (which must mean he was good in my case). some of what Des talked about over the weekend i have troubles with tho i have trouble with guidance and god speaking to me i really do1 and i have only ever spoken about it once, in the car to sum 1 but that was only brief as she had to go and as much as wanted it has never been brought up again, some times it would be handy to live with sum 1 that u really trust and love as a friend coz then it would be easy to talk as thoughts came to you instead of holding them off and dnever speaking them.actually i really wish that i could have met mmore pplz, that was probably the down side to the weekend. i didnt really get the opportunity to meet all that many pplz. although i did have a really good chat to one person and she was sooo nice!!. and it did do a good job of taking the mind off alot. although the minds was still on alot of things only it wasnt on the things that shouldnt be on. now however it is hard to not have pplz around all the time. i like ahving friends around all of thi time, i am actually lookig forward to livin in hob in the near yet far future. i thought about this yesterday and i realised that some pplz i dont think i could live with comfortably. like i dont feel confortable with them in all/some aspects of my life. even if they are really great friends i was asked by christy who i would be the most comfortable with in every day life and knowing that what ever faults these pplz have (and WE all hjave them) or whatever differences u have that u know u will always love them and be comfortable with and i really did think of it and 2 pplz did i select. ( which makes you think dont it, well it did me ne ways). and this is the 1st night that dad is in bed and didnt tell me to go to bed and what happens. john tells me to go to bed. it must sbe my speedy typing that is keeping him awake. so i spose i should go as josh has left me. the 1 night i can talk and he leaves me, adn ceri is now left, so i am left on my lonoesome and writing pointless yet satisfying ( kindof as i now have to go) journals. ta ta to you all and ha ha ato you none. (it come to my head so i wrote it, do it make sense u ask? no! but ne ways)

over and out crrr...