Life Plans?

[fluffyterror]

The other night while my wonderful boyfriend and I were laying in bed, we were talking about, well let me rephrase that, he was talking about how he would like to see me get some sort of a career going. It was one of those, "Oh god not another one of these" conversations... but, he had never really talked about it like that with me before, in fact he even said he always avoided talking about it with me, because he knew I hated it, and he knew I always got an earful about it from everybody else. So I listened to what he had to say, and since then I have been doing a lot of thinking. That night, I went to bed sort of depressed. Depressed that I have waited this long, not just to DO something with my life, but to THINK about what I want to start doing with my life. Most people straight of highschool know what they want to be. But, who knows, because most highschoolers change their major in college at least four times before graduating, and the average age of a college graduate now is 28 years old. And Chris also said I shouldn't worry about feeling "too old", he laughed at me and said he wasn't going to ever let me use that excuse, because 26 years old is still really young. He told me some stories about people in his life who were in the same scenario I was, and a lot of those stories gave me hope. One of them was about a friend he had, a 27 year old waitress who hadn't done anything with her life, but one day she just decided she wanted to be a lawyer, and started going to school, and now she's a lawyer. Then Chris told me the story about how he decided to pick his career path, how it just fell in his lap but he is so good at it, because it's what he is most passionate about. You really need to love what you're doing, to be good at it. So, for the past couple of days I've been thinking a lot about what he said and about what I want out of life, not what other peope would want, but what would make Robin happy. And I came up with a few things. Kind of like a list of things I want to do in my life, before I die. I've had over 25 years to be a child and act silly and be irresponsible, it's time to start making some decisions for what is best for me in the long run. So here is my list of life stuff that would make Robin happy.

The Happy Robin Life List (in NO particular order)
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Have children
Get married
Redecorate an ugly house, then live in it
Build a garden
Rescue animals and find good homes for them
Go to school to learn a trade
Have a career that I LOVE
Make enough money to support my family
Take some cuilinary classes
Visit my parents more often
Go on vacations
Have health insurance
Take care of my legal messiness
Become a better snowboarder
Learn another language

So, when you look at it, that's really not a huge list, especially since it's a Life List. But one of the things I can start working on, NOW, is the school thing. I know I always say I'm going back to school, I know you have all heard that so much, but apparently I have a serious issue with applying my wishes and making things actually HAPPEN.

So I'm going to get on the ball here and try to make this school thing happen, because I need to learn something, I need to get started, because if I get back into the "work work work" routine (at a dead end job) ((again)), I'm going to go fucking crazy and really hate myself.

So here I go. I'm going to go apply myself now.