Breakup

Nov 30, 2014 22:38

So the problem with not wasting years of my life slowly falling out of love before mercifully ending a relationship is when I do it in a timely fashion, it hurts like hell.

Noel was the catalyst, not the cause. If anything, I may lose her because of the awkwardness of her friend living with her other friend as exes. But something had to give. It isn't right to keep forcing this, knowing the end is inevitable. Even wishing I had waited til after the holidays, after my birthday, closer to the end of our summer lease... I feel sick at the thought of fleecing her, knowing it won't work out.
But now I miss lis, who is stronger than me and insisting we break as cleanly as humanly possible. No cuddles or even sleeping in the same bed, despite my tears. I'll be thankful later... Right now, it's tearing me apart.

It's not possible for everything to be okay? Hopefully the right things are just coming in stages. Everything happens for a reason?
Angels... Help. Please.
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