written on my phone bc I couldn't waitkwrittenApril 4 2015, 03:37:07 UTC
In his Imagitorium there is a girl with violet eyes and raven hair and an alabaster brow. (He's not entirely sure why, but a movie told him once that this is what girls wanted to look like and so that's what he chose.
A girl for girls to dream about.)
His girl never cries and only smiles instead of laughs and never talks too much or is too quiet. She doesn't deal heavy emotional cards and her poker face is as serious as his own. They argue for hours on topics both are familiar with and never get angry when the other doesn't agree. They just smile their poker face smiles and part as if they never argued in the first place.
Abed never feels as though he is lacking anything from his Imagination Girl because she is his dream and therefore isn't real and maybe isn't possible but that's what dreams are for.
She asks him why he comes to her for the first time moments after he has slunk by Annie crying on the couch holding a pink stuffie bear to her chest and he doesn't respond.
Not the way he should.
He doesn't tell her that she has broken her programming and he is not in the mood for an AI epic; he doesn't tell her to mind her own business; he doesn't change the subject; he doesn't remind her that she shouldn't know there is anything beyond their games; he doesn't scold her or tease her or deflect.
He breaks his own rules against himself.
He says, "Because out there is a girl who is crying and you don't cry."
And his Imagination Girl smiles at him and it is soft and sad which is almost as bad as crying because it is about him.
But they play their games anyway.
The first time she cries her hair softens from jet black to a softer shade of brown and he has just left Annie dancing around the house and laughing because she aced an exam she was really nervous about.
She says, "You love her more than me."
And he doesn't say Yes. And he doesn't say No. And he doesn't remind her that she's not allowed to cry.
And she doesn't remind him that he is the one who is crying.
He just sits ans puts his arm around her and lets her cry.
The first time she dances like he isn't in the room he's just stormed out of a room where Annie was shouting and he was yelling and everything was loud and confusing and there is his I.G. dancing.
He laughs (he shouldn't) and joins her (he oughtn't) and they pretend together that his heart is beating too quickly because of their ragged movements and not because her eyes are doe-brown and she's just a little bit shorter today.
The first time they fight is the last time he sees her and he just walked out on Annie in the middle of a great conversation while watching a great movie and I.G. is sitting on the ground cross-legged and she shouts at him.
"You changed me," she shouts.
He doesn't wince.
"I am your dream. I was perfect. Now I am messy and irrational and SHORT and I look like her that is outside."
He says something about dreams being a reflection of reality.
She throws a shoe at him.
"Maybe all along I was just a reflection of you and you finally got tired of looking in the mirror."
He still isn't sure how to deal with tears or shouting or dancing or what to do with a girl that is flesh and bone.
And he probably gets it all wrong most of the time.
But his reflection stays in the mirror these days and maybe that's some kind of progress.
RE: written on my phone bc I couldn't waitfluffyfrolickerApril 8 2015, 11:08:18 UTC
HOW WOULD I NOT? and now i'm nervously sitting and hoping you'll like what i posted for you <3 good thing i have other things i have to do so i won't sit in front of my computer all day
In his Imagitorium there is a girl with violet eyes and raven hair and an alabaster brow. (He's not entirely sure why, but a movie told him once that this is what girls wanted to look like and so that's what he chose.
A girl for girls to dream about.)
His girl never cries and only smiles instead of laughs and never talks too much or is too quiet. She doesn't deal heavy emotional cards and her poker face is as serious as his own. They argue for hours on topics both are familiar with and never get angry when the other doesn't agree. They just smile their poker face smiles and part as if they never argued in the first place.
Abed never feels as though he is lacking anything from his Imagination Girl because she is his dream and therefore isn't real and maybe isn't possible but that's what dreams are for.
She asks him why he comes to her for the first time moments after he has slunk by Annie crying on the couch holding a pink stuffie bear to her chest and he doesn't respond.
Not the way he should.
He doesn't tell her that she has broken her programming and he is not in the mood for an AI epic; he doesn't tell her to mind her own business; he doesn't change the subject; he doesn't remind her that she shouldn't know there is anything beyond their games; he doesn't scold her or tease her or deflect.
He breaks his own rules against himself.
He says, "Because out there is a girl who is crying and you don't cry."
And his Imagination Girl smiles at him and it is soft and sad which is almost as bad as crying because it is about him.
But they play their games anyway.
The first time she cries her hair softens from jet black to a softer shade of brown and he has just left Annie dancing around the house and laughing because she aced an exam she was really nervous about.
She says, "You love her more than me."
And he doesn't say Yes.
And he doesn't say No.
And he doesn't remind her that she's not allowed to cry.
And she doesn't remind him that he is the one who is crying.
He just sits ans puts his arm around her and lets her cry.
The first time she dances like he isn't in the room he's just stormed out of a room where Annie was shouting and he was yelling and everything was loud and confusing and there is his I.G. dancing.
He laughs (he shouldn't) and joins her (he oughtn't) and they pretend together that his heart is beating too quickly because of their ragged movements and not because her eyes are doe-brown and she's just a little bit shorter today.
The first time they fight is the last time he sees her and he just walked out on Annie in the middle of a great conversation while watching a great movie and I.G. is sitting on the ground cross-legged and she shouts at him.
"You changed me," she shouts.
He doesn't wince.
"I am your dream. I was perfect. Now I am messy and irrational and SHORT and I look like her that is outside."
He says something about dreams being a reflection of reality.
She throws a shoe at him.
"Maybe all along I was just a reflection of you and you finally got tired of looking in the mirror."
He still isn't sure how to deal with tears or shouting or dancing or what to do with a girl that is flesh and bone.
And he probably gets it all wrong most of the time.
But his reflection stays in the mirror these days and maybe that's some kind of progress.
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THIS IS THE ABED/ANNIE FIC OF MY DREAMATORIUM
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