Fic: I'm gonna make sure it never happens again (HP, Draco/Hermione)
I'm gonna make sure it never happens again | HP | Draco/Hermione (mentions of Harry, Ginny, Ron, Astoria, Scorpious) | R (to be safe) | 1023 words | for the December meme of Doom, for vergoldung and her prompt Nineteen Years Later, platform 9 3/4, silent glances. // And the way that you stare. // (Don't you dare.)Author's note: ELEONORE, I HAVE NO APOLOGIES
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ALSO I AM SHIPPING US FOREVER TOO, OBVIOUSLY ♥
we are the same.
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An old, wooden clock ticks away seconds after seconds. // Neither of them moves.
Okay. Okay. I am so fucking in love with this, I'm not sure how to put it into words. Let's try it with a list?
1) The phrasing. So so beautiful. I love the heavy, intricate atmosphere it creates, when it's so simple image.
2) The visual. Wooden clocks are fucking pretty okay.
3) The metaphor. Omg Doris I love it so much. It's just perfect. Time passes, things change. And sometimes they just don't move. Ughhhhh.
4) The fact that they are so static but also constantly circling around each other without ever really getting ~there? I weep. (And weep some more when you close the story without ending the cycle.)
They mutter each other's surnames, almost shyly, and then Draco remembers there's years of history here, even if the boy this man used to be didn't want to be Draco's friend once.
NEGL this gave me all the Drarry feels. BOYS YOU ARE FOREVER STUPID STUPID STUPID. *smashes their heads together*
These days, about a year later, he remembers that evening through images of her. Her fiddling with her fork, her twirling her tea spoon, her staring at the window, her losing focus in one evening more times than he'd ever seen her lose focus in seven years of Hogwarts classes. Her blue dress that trailed behind her as she walked, Ron's hand on her hip, Ron trying to kiss her lips, Hermione turning away to have him kiss her cheek instead.
Urgh this. Why, Doris. WHY. I CANNOT DEAL WITH YOUR WORDS OKAY. FUCK.
The imagery. OH GOD THE IMAGERY. This is just so fucking vivid in my mind. And he watcher's theme, kill me now. You are doing this on purpose, you are! AND NOOOOO WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO MY BABES (MY CANON BABES) I REFUUUSE WHY WHY WHY PLEASE STOP THIS IS JUST TOO MUCH PAIN. And fuck me, but I relate to this like burnig too. Ugh. You have no mercy. It's like I'm heartbroken and squicked at the same time. THIS IS TOO MUCH EMOTION AND I CAN'T TAKE IT.
He takes her to his favorite hotel, and her hands shake the whole time.
They're in the hotel lobby, when she takes his hand and pulls him towards an empty room, and then she presses him against the wall and forces her tongue into his mouth.
She digs her nails too deep into his back and he leaves traces of his lips and his tongue all over her body and there are tears in her eyes.
It's horrible in many ways, none of which make any difference in the end, because there's still the second time, and the time after that and the time after that.
DORIS DORIS DORIS DORIS DORIS
WHAT ARE YOU DOING WHAT ARE YOU DOING
I HAVE NO WORDS
YOU ARE FLAWLESS TO ME
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He does this thing, his thing, where he smiles and rolls his eyes, decides not to let the words mid-life crisis leave his mouth, because he's clever like that sometimes.
He kisses her bare neck instead, fingers trailing lightly over her arms.
Crying, basically. She cut her hair to her chin. She cut her hair and he doesn't dare to speak out loud because this whole situation is just too damn ugly and ordinary and maybe a litltle depressing because of how convenient it makes him (and besides, what would be the point in stating the obvious). Oh, they are so gloriously average it hurts. And I love it so much, Doris. How did you know exactly what I love about them. They are never epic. They are forever lost and forever too late. I love it so much.
They never talk about their children or friends or work.
It sounds horrible, when he thinks about it. But then again, that never was the point of this.
BUT YES YES DORIS YES YES YES
They can never work. That isn't their point. (And I die, okay. I die.)
He's standing more than 30 feet away from her. He knows, because he makes sure he does. Because if he's more than 30 feet away from her, maybe he won't take in her scent and maybe he won't mind Ron's hand around her waist, and maybe nothing happens, nothing at all.
FOREVER SCREAMING
THIS IS WHAT IS ALL BOILS DOWN TO
EVERYTHING IS PERFECT
I AM SORRY BUT WHAT IS THIS FIC
LIKE THIS IS SO EPICALLY WHAT I WANTED
JUST
YOU ARE AMAZING
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
AND
I LOVE YOU
AND OMFG I CANNOT HANDLE THAT TAG. I JUST CANNOT. YOU HAVE A TAG ABOUT ME. WHAT WHAT WHAT. HOW ARE YOU REAL IN MY LIFE. OH DORIS, I COULDN'T LEAVE YOU IF I TRIED.
I WILL CLING TO YOUR LEG EVEN AFTER YOU'RE LONG OVER LITTLE OLD ME. YOU'LL SEE.
♥
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ADORE YOU FOREVER ♥ you know all the things.
of course I have a tag about you, you silly little woman :P ♥
glad you loved this ♥ also I will forever continue writing fic for you because you're always so in love with what I write, it fills me with shiny feels ♥
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BEST FUNCTIONAL SHIP EVER. JS. #dorel
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+ I am glad you're in love with that (I sort of am too) and it's so awful. They're awful and dirty and they never learn anything and they never get anywhere. And they never break out of the cycle, never.
+ I HAD DRARRY FEELS TOO, STUPID STUPID FEELS.
+ ♥
+ not-perfect!sex should forever be written about and she's just too aggressive at times, because what else is there? and he takes it all, because what else is there?
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(That ficlet sounds so tempting, I'm running!)
Seriously, Drarry is the actual worst. I always think I can quit HP fandom except that they always lure me back in. Bastards.
+ not-perfect!sex should forever be written about and she's just too aggressive at times, because what else is there? and he takes it all, because what else is there?
I COULD NOT LOVE YOU MORE
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+ they are one of the worst things in HP fandom, and there's a lot of doomed ships there. (all of them, fine. fine, i'll go reread my favorite harry/hermione fic now, because it always breaks my heart.)
+ ♥
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