this should follow up with a picture
i'm pulled in every direction, and not knowing where i'm going what im doing, and even who's telling the truth to me, who's trying to sway me to "their" side. like i said, i feel like a rockstar, but without all the money. too many painkillers and having this unabashedly torrid life. does anyone need a singer for their band? cause right now i would fit. All this conflict in my life would make for some mad strong lyrics. Grrr. I am not a prize to be "won." I'm sick of bieng soft, with all my lack of respect for others. I lost my posh biabia attitude and lost my focus. As this goes on its killing me. but not so slowly. Maybe my heart will finally explode. That would be great. A one way plane ticket to Palermo, or bellagio or even to Chicago is what I really want right now. Where Nobody knows my name, except my family. I'm just waitng for my heart to finally collapse, or go cold. whatever happens first. Blue would be a nice color on me.