hiyaa!!!!
Im really really really sorry for not commenting recently on fics + posts or anything like that. ;'[ ;'[ somethings wrong!!
No i'm not busy.
Yes i've been reading all the updated fics.
No i'm not dead.
Yes, it's just me lazying around... more than usual.
Lately... for a very long time now...
- i've been NOT studying + doing assignments + essays
- eating a lot
- playing games on the internet
- wanting to sleep all the time
- and not going to school...- well that's not really my fault- the teachers are on strike causing more than 50 000 students to not attend classes.
I'm grateful for the time I've gotten off to get work done because of the strike but my mind has just not been doing it. I can now even sub consciously go to watch a video on youtube or start watching a new drama on mysoju or start looking for fics to read on LJ ANYTHING TO DISTRACT MYSELF. This happens without me realising the work being piled up for me to get done... i start distracting myself from my work and COMPLETELY FORGET.. and I mean that in the way that i don't even remember at all that i have work to be done. Before, I remember, that there was this little voice in my head telling me that I have work to do. But now its gone! Vanished, without a trace. :( i miss it.
Now its the end of the day... time for me to go to sleep... its only later- before bed that i realised i have not even looked at my textbooks.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? T_T. I was never like this before... i mean in high school i was always thinking of getting my work done and keeping up with everything but its different now =[ . i'm falling behind and if i dont do anything now- its gonna all go to waste... my parents hard earned money to help me get a higher education... all the studying i had done just to get into a university... I must NOT let it go to waste!! mhmm!
I dont know why but i feel so much better after typing all that junk =D. its as if my head just got lighter and fluffier<3 aww feels sooo goodd ^_^.
I've never really done anything like this before =X heh.
now what can i do to keep myself concentrated on my work? gots to thinkkk!!
i've tried giving it all up.. but it didnt work... :P it got worse.
OH AND MY EATING PROBLEM!!
i've been eating lots of junk and fast food and its hard for me to start eating healthy stuff like i used to.. i can feel my body shape getting bigger and am getting uncomfortable about it. I have to set up a goal to start exercising again... at least when i went to school i would have to walk across the huge campas to get from one place to another and on top of that walk from the bus station to where i parked my car- so it sorta made up for all that but now its like AHHHHHHH! :P i'm gonna start walking on the old tredmill =D yes!
I've heard that once you write things on paper and tell another person about it.. you will do it :D so HERE it goes XD.
ooh and i wanted to share pictures of stuff that happened in the past weeks... but i shall do that in another post =] hehe
No i'm not busy.
Yes i've been reading all the updated fics.
No i'm not dead.
Yes, it's just me lazying around... more than usual.
Lately... for a very long time now...
- i've been NOT studying + doing assignments + essays
- eating a lot
- playing games on the internet
- wanting to sleep all the time
- and not going to school...- well that's not really my fault- the teachers are on strike causing more than 50 000 students to not attend classes.
I'm grateful for the time I've gotten off to get work done because of the strike but my mind has just not been doing it. I can now even sub consciously go to watch a video on youtube or start watching a new drama on mysoju or start looking for fics to read on LJ ANYTHING TO DISTRACT MYSELF. This happens without me realising the work being piled up for me to get done... i start distracting myself from my work and COMPLETELY FORGET.. and I mean that in the way that i don't even remember at all that i have work to be done. Before, I remember, that there was this little voice in my head telling me that I have work to do. But now its gone! Vanished, without a trace. :( i miss it.
Now its the end of the day... time for me to go to sleep... its only later- before bed that i realised i have not even looked at my textbooks.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? T_T. I was never like this before... i mean in high school i was always thinking of getting my work done and keeping up with everything but its different now =[ . i'm falling behind and if i dont do anything now- its gonna all go to waste... my parents hard earned money to help me get a higher education... all the studying i had done just to get into a university... I must NOT let it go to waste!! mhmm!
I dont know why but i feel so much better after typing all that junk =D. its as if my head just got lighter and fluffier<3 aww feels sooo goodd ^_^.
I've never really done anything like this before =X heh.
now what can i do to keep myself concentrated on my work? gots to thinkkk!!
i've tried giving it all up.. but it didnt work... :P it got worse.
OH AND MY EATING PROBLEM!!
i've been eating lots of junk and fast food and its hard for me to start eating healthy stuff like i used to.. i can feel my body shape getting bigger and am getting uncomfortable about it. I have to set up a goal to start exercising again... at least when i went to school i would have to walk across the huge campas to get from one place to another and on top of that walk from the bus station to where i parked my car- so it sorta made up for all that but now its like AHHHHHHH! :P i'm gonna start walking on the old tredmill =D yes!
I've heard that once you write things on paper and tell another person about it.. you will do it :D so HERE it goes XD.
ooh and i wanted to share pictures of stuff that happened in the past weeks... but i shall do that in another post =] hehe