Damn you insomnia!
It be 2:40AM man, and I be tired. Oh lord, do I be tired.
I went to bed at 10:45PM, only to find myself wake up at 12:00AM, and though I had cats beside me, that was not too comforting, as I have to be up to get ready for work around 6:00AM. Ahem, so I try to get back to sleep. 2:00AM rolls around, and I've given up, so I read the Bipolar Web Community forums on MSN for a while, since there are usually interesting things in there... and then I got bored and here I am!
I have been removed from two of my drugs: Prozac and Seroquel. Prozac= Antidepressant; Seroquel= Antipsychotic. The problem that I am having with my sleep is not really especially related to the intended mental purpose of the drug. Seroquel, which I was using to reduce my paranoias and delusions, is also highly sedating. I've been stable for a while, so we decided to drop off that medication and see what happens... I was on a super low dose, so it was hard to say whether it was doing anything or not. I felt it made a difference, but I would like to be on fewer drugs. So anyway, I didn't think that my Seroquel was really sedating me all that much anymore, I never felt super tired after taking it.. usually you have to wait an hour or two for it to hit you (half an hour for me, for some reason) and yeah, it hasn't been hitting me lately, so I thought, oh not taking it will be fine. Well, my opinion is pending for the delusions and paranoias, but for sleep... oh dear god. I am SOOOO awake. See, at this point, a psychiatrist would say: Do you feel you were having a hypomanic episode? This is where I say: No. It's my no means a hypomanic episode. I'm not hyper, I don't have racing thoughts, I just can't sleep. Boooourns. Hopefully this insomnia will pass, and I will be able to sleep this coming night, because I'm not really good at deal with too little sleep. If it persists, I will have to start taking the seroquel again *darn*, or maybe a mild sedative like Ativan. The problem with Ativan is that it can be addictive. However, the thing with people being prescribed Ativan, to be used every night, and hour before bed or whatever... is that it's prescribed, and you're not going to take it any other time in the day, because you need to be awake and functional for work, and you're going to be anything but functional on a prescribed sedative (depending on dosage, and whether or not you suffer hypomanias/manias. Thus, addiction is not really a concern if it's prescribed for consistent use as it would be for me. I was prescribed it a few months ago when I was bouncing of the wall with agitation (mentally and physically) and swings of rage and irritability. Unfortunately, even though it quelled some of my vehemence, it also frigged my ability to work properly, and function as a normal capable human. In short.. I was reduced to a ball of fatigued jelly that typed on a keyboard and prayed that I wasn't dreaming the numbers in front, and that I was paying the claim correctly. All that being said: Sleep, I really want sleep. The amusing thing about this is that I actually have some Ativan in my possession from when it was prescribed to me, and you know what? I can't take it now because it will hit me in half an hour, then it will be 2.5 hours until I wake up to get ready for work... except that I won't wake up. *Sigh*
Ok, I'm more than bored. I am SOOOO bored. Damn you insomnia/pill changeover. Poo.
I went to bed at 10:45PM, only to find myself wake up at 12:00AM, and though I had cats beside me, that was not too comforting, as I have to be up to get ready for work around 6:00AM. Ahem, so I try to get back to sleep. 2:00AM rolls around, and I've given up, so I read the Bipolar Web Community forums on MSN for a while, since there are usually interesting things in there... and then I got bored and here I am!
I have been removed from two of my drugs: Prozac and Seroquel. Prozac= Antidepressant; Seroquel= Antipsychotic. The problem that I am having with my sleep is not really especially related to the intended mental purpose of the drug. Seroquel, which I was using to reduce my paranoias and delusions, is also highly sedating. I've been stable for a while, so we decided to drop off that medication and see what happens... I was on a super low dose, so it was hard to say whether it was doing anything or not. I felt it made a difference, but I would like to be on fewer drugs. So anyway, I didn't think that my Seroquel was really sedating me all that much anymore, I never felt super tired after taking it.. usually you have to wait an hour or two for it to hit you (half an hour for me, for some reason) and yeah, it hasn't been hitting me lately, so I thought, oh not taking it will be fine. Well, my opinion is pending for the delusions and paranoias, but for sleep... oh dear god. I am SOOOO awake. See, at this point, a psychiatrist would say: Do you feel you were having a hypomanic episode? This is where I say: No. It's my no means a hypomanic episode. I'm not hyper, I don't have racing thoughts, I just can't sleep. Boooourns. Hopefully this insomnia will pass, and I will be able to sleep this coming night, because I'm not really good at deal with too little sleep. If it persists, I will have to start taking the seroquel again *darn*, or maybe a mild sedative like Ativan. The problem with Ativan is that it can be addictive. However, the thing with people being prescribed Ativan, to be used every night, and hour before bed or whatever... is that it's prescribed, and you're not going to take it any other time in the day, because you need to be awake and functional for work, and you're going to be anything but functional on a prescribed sedative (depending on dosage, and whether or not you suffer hypomanias/manias. Thus, addiction is not really a concern if it's prescribed for consistent use as it would be for me. I was prescribed it a few months ago when I was bouncing of the wall with agitation (mentally and physically) and swings of rage and irritability. Unfortunately, even though it quelled some of my vehemence, it also frigged my ability to work properly, and function as a normal capable human. In short.. I was reduced to a ball of fatigued jelly that typed on a keyboard and prayed that I wasn't dreaming the numbers in front, and that I was paying the claim correctly. All that being said: Sleep, I really want sleep. The amusing thing about this is that I actually have some Ativan in my possession from when it was prescribed to me, and you know what? I can't take it now because it will hit me in half an hour, then it will be 2.5 hours until I wake up to get ready for work... except that I won't wake up. *Sigh*
Ok, I'm more than bored. I am SOOOO bored. Damn you insomnia/pill changeover. Poo.