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here we go
so, i have only about 2 weeks of school left and then exams. im working and i extended my lease to stay here for the summer. that means i wont be home much but i will make visits. im making good money and working good hours. i feel too old already but i guess this life has more surprises in stored for me. speaking of work, its great, i cant complain. i could but it would be pointless cause i know other jobs, and by other jobs i mean alot other jobs even with better pay suck so im not gonna complain. its a good job. i get good benefits, i work with good people, i just work late at night, thats all. but at work, i heather, thats right heather a.k.a. HaHa comes in and sees me for a little bit. it was good to see her for only a short period of time. it was good.
classes are going well, no complaints there except i just need to go more often but even with my lack of presence, i still make A's, how funny is that. but this leads me to my next topic, ambition.
im not challenged enough in this life and i have no ambition, no motivation, no purpose. i know alot of information on a wide variety of things but nothing to do with it. it feels like i should be dead. but this isnt a suicidal feeling, its just a lack of purpose type thing if that makes sense. i just do the same routine, and its never fulfilling. God shows me awesome things, gives me awesome blessings, keeps me happy and contained, but as for reality and what i mean by that, as for what i feel for my life, i feel like i should be doing something so much more. i probably am and i dont realize it but i just dont see a purpose. its almost like im asleep and im dreaming this all. and each day is just a new dream. i guess i need to start trying new things. guitar gives me a little ambition but not much cause i dont want a solo career in guitar, i want a band. i would love to have a life with art but its just a hobby. i would love to write stories but in no writer, im a narrator, even more a philosopher. and if videogames could make this life, i would be set. who knows, the Lord will show me something soon or ill just do what i alway do and thats make lemons.
or sell tshirts and play videogames
my mom is still sick, was getting better but 2 more lumps have showed up. but thats only because she quit taking her medicine so i dont know whats gonna happen. just keep praying for that.
talked to thom and gave him the good news. ill be home the weekend of may 7th, so i can hang out and catch up with you guys. it will be a good time. maybe i can come even earlier, just depends on exam week. but after that week, ill have 21 credits and ill graduate, 3 months and ill be 21, and also in that 3 months, me and graces 6 month anniversary.
i know i havent talked to most of yall in awhile but yall are still in my heart and mind. i think about yall alot so dont assume im being a bad friend. nobody has said anything but im just letting you know. i miss you all greatly and cant wait to see yall. and im gonna make many many visits and yall will have to come up here and see me as well. fun fun
as for the book, ive got a prologue and an outline of chapters. here comes the hard part, beginning to just write down all my memories and then start organizing it. thats gonna take a while and i need motivation to do it too. i just hope that i dont forget anything. thats why its gonna be a long process, im gonna make sure i dont forget to include anything.
well, im done. im gonna relax, go to sleep, get up and go to work. see yall soon and many blessings and of course, much love.
~peace
so, i have only about 2 weeks of school left and then exams. im working and i extended my lease to stay here for the summer. that means i wont be home much but i will make visits. im making good money and working good hours. i feel too old already but i guess this life has more surprises in stored for me. speaking of work, its great, i cant complain. i could but it would be pointless cause i know other jobs, and by other jobs i mean alot other jobs even with better pay suck so im not gonna complain. its a good job. i get good benefits, i work with good people, i just work late at night, thats all. but at work, i heather, thats right heather a.k.a. HaHa comes in and sees me for a little bit. it was good to see her for only a short period of time. it was good.
classes are going well, no complaints there except i just need to go more often but even with my lack of presence, i still make A's, how funny is that. but this leads me to my next topic, ambition.
im not challenged enough in this life and i have no ambition, no motivation, no purpose. i know alot of information on a wide variety of things but nothing to do with it. it feels like i should be dead. but this isnt a suicidal feeling, its just a lack of purpose type thing if that makes sense. i just do the same routine, and its never fulfilling. God shows me awesome things, gives me awesome blessings, keeps me happy and contained, but as for reality and what i mean by that, as for what i feel for my life, i feel like i should be doing something so much more. i probably am and i dont realize it but i just dont see a purpose. its almost like im asleep and im dreaming this all. and each day is just a new dream. i guess i need to start trying new things. guitar gives me a little ambition but not much cause i dont want a solo career in guitar, i want a band. i would love to have a life with art but its just a hobby. i would love to write stories but in no writer, im a narrator, even more a philosopher. and if videogames could make this life, i would be set. who knows, the Lord will show me something soon or ill just do what i alway do and thats make lemons.
or sell tshirts and play videogames
my mom is still sick, was getting better but 2 more lumps have showed up. but thats only because she quit taking her medicine so i dont know whats gonna happen. just keep praying for that.
talked to thom and gave him the good news. ill be home the weekend of may 7th, so i can hang out and catch up with you guys. it will be a good time. maybe i can come even earlier, just depends on exam week. but after that week, ill have 21 credits and ill graduate, 3 months and ill be 21, and also in that 3 months, me and graces 6 month anniversary.
i know i havent talked to most of yall in awhile but yall are still in my heart and mind. i think about yall alot so dont assume im being a bad friend. nobody has said anything but im just letting you know. i miss you all greatly and cant wait to see yall. and im gonna make many many visits and yall will have to come up here and see me as well. fun fun
as for the book, ive got a prologue and an outline of chapters. here comes the hard part, beginning to just write down all my memories and then start organizing it. thats gonna take a while and i need motivation to do it too. i just hope that i dont forget anything. thats why its gonna be a long process, im gonna make sure i dont forget to include anything.
well, im done. im gonna relax, go to sleep, get up and go to work. see yall soon and many blessings and of course, much love.
~peace