take my love through the night

[fluffedup]

to put it in simple terms,
i dont know how to love you anymore.

cos loving you now as it is,
is not and never sufficient in my eyes
i wish i gave you more
but this is all that i can give you. in reality.

still
i wish i gave you more

loving you
has brought me on this arduous journey
and time and time again
as though if it were a punishment for pushing you away
guiding your path along someone else's
i open a book, flip the pages to your page
slot the letter you wrote for me as a page reminder
and close the chapter with pain in my heart
cos i dont know how to love you anymore

but thankyou for this love
a love that has taught me much
it teaches, it upbrings. it breaks, it despairs
you make me happy. you make me cry
you bring happiness to the extreme, so much so i cry
and after so long,
i realise i still love you
it's a fact i cant deny anymore

love stands on different grounds
love - is watching someone like you be happy from afar
(and smile within to know you are happy)
love - is knowing how every single tiniest thing can mean so much
when others just dont see how much it means

so thankyou for this love
you have brought out in me for you
but i really
dont know how to love you anymore
cos i no longer can love you the way i want to.