Ramblings
I've been in a bad mood lately and I don't know how to get out of it. Maybe it's the whole chemicals and hormones but I don't know, things have just been pissing me off lately. I learned in my Psychology of Emotions class that this is called Mood Congruence and it means that my emotional state increases attention towards emotion relevant information and increases memories of similar emotion states. Basically if I'm in a bad mood then I will find everything to make it continue to be in a bad mood. So, to break this cycle I've been trying to find the positives in stuff around me. Here are some of the things I'm working on.
1. Unpreparedness for certain stuff: that is not in my control It is now termed "a challenge" and I will not be negative but will just help the situation.
2. Physics: It's not overly terrible. I'm actually making better progress and my TA has even said so. I feel really dumb most of the time but now I'm getting help from the friends I have made in the class. Today I got a "super fantistic" on my homework assignment (without Peter's help even!).
3. Circle K: There is nothing wrong with being a work-a-holic. It's what gives me endorphins and although they are entitled to their opinions I don't have to listen to other people's critisims on my shit - I get my stuff done, I get it done well, and they can just suck it. Likewise, I need to stop being so critical on other people, although I hold myself to high standards it is not ok to expect it from everyone. I think this puts me in the worst moods most of the time and so I just have to let it go (unless it's that time of the month, then you'll hear me bitch. Oh goodness how you will hear me bitch!)
4. Money: I don't have much of it so I have to invent ways to be conservative with it. Meaning I will now stop spending it on stupid stuff. Best things in life are free, right? I know I will eventually have to ask my mom for money, so my goal is to make it a game and see how long I can go without asking for it. Although I think all the end of the year banquets will end up killing my account.
5. Guys: Although it's frustating, I don't need to sit and dwell over my lack of a love life. Infact, i should enjoy the independence. Many of my friends that are tied down to a significant other have really changed their whole lives around and I know the same would happen to me, so until then I should enjoy being my crazy self.
6. Home: I miss home like mad. I don't know anything to do with this one.Although I look foward to going home for the summer, I don't look foward to long hours at work. I also plan on taking a more proactive approach with my time at home and take a summer school course. Yay for challenges.
7. Procrastination: Ok, it sucks overall, but it still is too fun to give up. I need to stop getting down on myself when I do procrastinate, it solves nothing and makes me feel miserable. I've been practicing a mantra during crunch times "it will be over tomorrow...it will be over tomorrow". It makes me realize that this assignment or this paper isn't crucial in the long run, tomorrow is another day and I don't have to be making myself miserable. Of course to bypass all of this I could just do my work earlier, but then I can't watch tv.
That's about it for now. I'm in a better mood today and I don't know why. I hope I keep it up.
1. Unpreparedness for certain stuff: that is not in my control It is now termed "a challenge" and I will not be negative but will just help the situation.
2. Physics: It's not overly terrible. I'm actually making better progress and my TA has even said so. I feel really dumb most of the time but now I'm getting help from the friends I have made in the class. Today I got a "super fantistic" on my homework assignment (without Peter's help even!).
3. Circle K: There is nothing wrong with being a work-a-holic. It's what gives me endorphins and although they are entitled to their opinions I don't have to listen to other people's critisims on my shit - I get my stuff done, I get it done well, and they can just suck it. Likewise, I need to stop being so critical on other people, although I hold myself to high standards it is not ok to expect it from everyone. I think this puts me in the worst moods most of the time and so I just have to let it go (unless it's that time of the month, then you'll hear me bitch. Oh goodness how you will hear me bitch!)
4. Money: I don't have much of it so I have to invent ways to be conservative with it. Meaning I will now stop spending it on stupid stuff. Best things in life are free, right? I know I will eventually have to ask my mom for money, so my goal is to make it a game and see how long I can go without asking for it. Although I think all the end of the year banquets will end up killing my account.
5. Guys: Although it's frustating, I don't need to sit and dwell over my lack of a love life. Infact, i should enjoy the independence. Many of my friends that are tied down to a significant other have really changed their whole lives around and I know the same would happen to me, so until then I should enjoy being my crazy self.
6. Home: I miss home like mad. I don't know anything to do with this one.Although I look foward to going home for the summer, I don't look foward to long hours at work. I also plan on taking a more proactive approach with my time at home and take a summer school course. Yay for challenges.
7. Procrastination: Ok, it sucks overall, but it still is too fun to give up. I need to stop getting down on myself when I do procrastinate, it solves nothing and makes me feel miserable. I've been practicing a mantra during crunch times "it will be over tomorrow...it will be over tomorrow". It makes me realize that this assignment or this paper isn't crucial in the long run, tomorrow is another day and I don't have to be making myself miserable. Of course to bypass all of this I could just do my work earlier, but then I can't watch tv.
That's about it for now. I'm in a better mood today and I don't know why. I hope I keep it up.