Sheppard/DoppleShepp - In Dreams Lie Truth
In Dreams Lie The Truth.
Author :flubber2kool
Rating: NC-17
Spoilers - This is sort of an AR version of events that took place in the episode Doppleganger.
Characters - Radek Zelenka, Jennifer Keller, Samantha Carter, Rodney McKay, John Sheppard, Doppleganger Sheppard.
Summary - As John faces himself in a dream he learns to accept something about himself and stops running.
This story is being written for show_goes_on with the prompts John/Doppel!Shep, I'm living in your dreams & it all breaks down at the role reversal.
A/N I would like to thank my beta Phenix_00 She is a great person and really helps make my stories better
For the purposes of clarity in this story the Atlantis John Sheppard will be referred to as John and the Doppleganger Sheppard will be referred to as Colonel Sheppard (Or just Colonel.) Hope this helps.
I have no rights over and of the SGA characters or settings and this is just being written for fun.
*****
Sam looked down on them helplessly. Ever since SGA-1 had returned from M3X-387, all hell had broken loose. People were having nightmares and she had lost one of the expedition members. Radek had brought another crystal to help find the entity. This had led to Rodney. She had agreed for them to use the equipment that they had developed at the SGC to allow John to get in to Rodney's mind but that hadn't been what it was meant for. And now the entity was in John. All she could do was watch and wait and hope that John was strong enough to make it. And pray that the hasmat suits would be enough to stop whatever it was moving on again.
John had had enough of this creature. Colonel Sheppard was making his life hell. He had to watch as his friends were put through all sorts of pain and anguish. Not only that, thanks to this creature, one of his colleagues had died. Now after having watched as it had gone after Rodney, it was here for him.
They both ended up on the gateroom floor with a thud. John felt winded by the impact as he lay there looking in to the eyes of the alien entity. Instead of strange eyes he saw his own. John was unnerved by this and didn’t notice the Colonel taking a tight grip of his arms. It was only as he tried to get up that he realised that he was pinned. And he was not happy about it.
Looking up at the Colonel John could feel the hatred welling up inside him. “What the hell do you want? Isn’t it enough that you have scared my friends and killed some of them too?"
The Colonel looked down at him. “I am sorry. I wish it hadn’t been you. Anyone but you.” Then he continued with, what almost sounded like regret in his voice, “ I cannot help being what I am any more that you can.”
John looked surprised as the Colonel’s features softened from the hate and contempt that had been there before. In-fact John could have sworn that there was a look of sadness in his eyes.
The Colonel looked up at John’s face and said, “You are a very complex man John Sheppard. I knew this when I became one with you back on the planet and I can feel it even more now.”
John looked at him, trying to mask his feelings. This received a laugh, smile and a shake of the head.
“It’s too late for that John. I am in your mind. I have felt the pain and anger. I have also felt the hate and the confusion there too.”
Looking up at him, John barely concealed his anger. ‘What do you want from me?”
The Colonel leant down and placed his lips on John’s in a chaste kiss. Pulling back the Colonel looked at him.
“I want the one thing that I am not certain I can have. I want you John.”
John lay there in shock. This was not what he had expected and he didn’t know how he wanted to react.
“You have no idea how beautiful you are John Sheppard. I felt that the minute I entered your mind. Not only that, you are brave and loyal. I see that in your mind. I see the pain that you have from all those that you have lost, from the thought that Rodney has gone.”
As the Colonel moved above him, John felt his arousal against him.
“Let go of me and let me get up” he growled.
The Colonel did so, uncertain of what was going to happen next. As they stood in silence, John closed the distance towards him. Standing facing him, he lifted his hand and ran it down the Colonel’s face, his face. There was something in the back of him mind that was warning him that this was wrong but he chose to ignore it. As he looked at the Colonel he could see that his eye’s were dark with lust and he wondered if that was what he looked like when he was turned on.
Despite the anger that he still felt towards the Colonel, as he closed his eyes, John could feel the blood surging to his groin. Suddenly, without warning, he closed the distance between them and kissed the Colonel. It was rough and hard. It felt so good. John's mind was lost in how surreal it all felt. It was him and yet it wasn't him and he didn't really know how to deal with it. So in the end he decided to surrender himself to the moment, loosing himself in heat and passion of the kiss.
Then with one thought the pair of them were standing naked.
"If only it was that easy when I am awake." John thought with a smile.
John felt an erection pushing in to his groin as he looked up in to the Colonel's eye's. They were black with lust. John had no doubt that his looked the same. He pulled the Colonel in to his body. He felt their two cocks rub together and began to run his hands up and down the Colonel's body, mapping every curve, every ripple of muscle.
The Colonel looked at John and said, "Fuck me please."
John ran his fingers through the Colonel's hair and nodded. He found himself wanting this as much as the Colonel did. Soon they were on the ground, with John laying on top, his heart beginning to race.
In the isolation room Jennifer watched as John's heart beat began to race. This was not good.
"His heart rate is dangerously high. I don't want to wake him up with him being in this state, it could make the situation worse."
"Not only that, " Radek pointed out, "The entity would still be in his body."
"Hook me up again. It might help him to know that I am alive."
Dr Keller did as Rodney asked. After a few moments Rodney opened his eyes.
"I can't get in. I can't do it"
In the gateroom John pulled the Colonel's legs over his shoulders. He then entered him and began to fuck him, rocking backward and forward. Soon the room was filled with the moans and groans of two beings giving themselves to each other. It didn't matter to John that this was happening in his head. It still felt real and oh god it felt so good.
As John kept moving the Colonel began to call out his name, "John. John. John" It slowly became a chant.
John began to move in rhythm with the chant. This soon took the Colonel over the edge and he came with scream that was almost primeval. This in its turn made John orgasm with his whole body shuddering as he did so. Slowly John collapsed on top of the Colonel his spent member slipping from the Colonel's body as he did so.
As the two men curled up beside each other the Colonel looked at John and said, "I wish I could stay but you know that it would never work. As much as I have feelings for you, unlike you I cannot deny what I am."
Slowly, with a gentleness that bordered on reverence, the Colonel ran his hand down John's face.
"You and I both know that it wouldn't be long before I left you to search for another mind. How many more would I kill?"
John looked at him with understanding in his eyes. He knew what the Colonel said was true. As well as that he knew that there was no way that Atlantis would be allowed to function if they knew that such an entity was loose.
"Yeah, you're right." John said, as he looked at the form that lay beside him.
With a sigh, he got up and gave the Colonel a hand up. " Yeah. I agree. Not sure I could cope with another me, even if you are in my head."
With one thought the two men were clothed again, standing face to face.
In the isolation room Jennifer looked at John's heartbeat. It was still dangerously high and there was nothing that she could do.
Rodney looked at her with panic in his eyes and said, "Let me try again please"
Jennifer looked at him and nodded. It couldn't make the situation worse.
Back in the gateroom John and the Colonel waited. Rodney suddenly appeared at the top of the stairs. John gave him a small nod of the head and the Colonel rushed up the stairs.
"You should be dead." The Colonel looked at him as he ran up the stairs.
"Well I didn't die did I. " Rodney said with a grin.
Anger flashed in the Colonel's eyes as he ran up the stairs. Grabbing Rodney round the neck he snarled, " Then I will have to finish the job. You know that you can't win."
With that he threw Rodney against a wall with a sickening thud. John had to react to this. Running up the stairs he pulled the Colonel off Rodney and stood there and waited.
Rodney stood up and trying not let the Colonel know that he was hurting when he spluttered, " Oh, yes we can."
Suddenly there was a bolt of electricity that ran through the alien. John winced as he watched. But he knew that there was nothing he could do.
Rodney continued, " You are vulnerable to electric shocks. That's why you couldn't kill me. You had to move on before you had finished."
Back in the isolation room Keller gave John another shock through his stomach. The Colonel arched his back with a look of agony on his face. As the electricity faded he fell to his knees. The Colonel knew what was coming next. He didn't want it but he knew that there was no other way.
John moved down and grabbed him. With some effort he managed to throw him though the gate.
John stared at the gate as it closed. Rodney came down to stand beside him.
"I'm glad that's over." He said with a sight of relief.
"Yeah, I don't want to go through that again" John answered, trying to sound as natural as possible.
Rodney looked at him and said, "Yeah but I thought that there would be more people here and more women."
John looked at him and raised his eyebrows as he laughed.
Back in the isolation room Radek nodded as the crystal lit up. He disconnected the cables to Rodney's head as Jennifer took the leads off his head. John suddenly became aware that he was no longer in the gate room. Lifting his head he found that he was in the isolation room. As he looked up to the observation room John saw Sam smiling down at him. He gave her a weak smile. As he lay down, John looked across at Rodney. Smiling, Rodney lay his head back down on the pillow. John lay his head back too. He had a feeling that although the entity was gone from his mind, he would be feeling the after effects for a long time to come.
Epilogue -
John watched as Rodney lay the last crystal down on the floor. Suddenly crystals began to light up all around him. John wondered if the entity was telling the others about him. As the lights came on as far as the eye could see, he wasn't sure he wanted to find out.
When they got back to Atlantis, Dr Keller had one last look over Rodney and John and said, " I want you to go and get some rest."
As she spoke she looked at them both and said, "I mean it. If I catch either of you up an about for the rest of the day, I will have you marched back to your quarters. "
John looked at Rodney and wondered how long it would be before she would have to make good on that threat. As far as he was concerned, he was more than happy to spend some down time.
It wasn't long before John, wearing nothing but his boxers and t-shirt, collapsed face down on his bed, drifting straight of to sleep.
Suddenly he found himself sitting on the edge of the bed. The sun was streaming through the window in to his room. Standing up and stretching he felt ready to face the day.
After his shower John walked in to his room and stood before him mirror. As he looked at his reflection. It changed in to the familiar form of the Colonel.
John looked at him and said, "I'm dreaming aren't I."
The figure looked back and said, " I guess so."
John looked worried. "I wouldn't worry. I'm not going to be here long. I just wanted to say goodbye."
John reached out his hand and ran it over the mirror. The figure of the Colonel looked at him and smiled. John smiled back.
"I'm glad to see that you are ok. I never wanted to hurt you. You should stop hiding from yourself. Goodbye John."
With that the figure disappeared leaving John looking at his own reflection.
It was then that he found himself lying in his own bed. Looking at time he rolled over and closed his eyes. Suddenly everything fell in to place and John was at peace for the first time in a long time.
Author :flubber2kool
Rating: NC-17
Spoilers - This is sort of an AR version of events that took place in the episode Doppleganger.
Characters - Radek Zelenka, Jennifer Keller, Samantha Carter, Rodney McKay, John Sheppard, Doppleganger Sheppard.
Summary - As John faces himself in a dream he learns to accept something about himself and stops running.
This story is being written for show_goes_on with the prompts John/Doppel!Shep, I'm living in your dreams & it all breaks down at the role reversal.
A/N I would like to thank my beta Phenix_00 She is a great person and really helps make my stories better
For the purposes of clarity in this story the Atlantis John Sheppard will be referred to as John and the Doppleganger Sheppard will be referred to as Colonel Sheppard (Or just Colonel.) Hope this helps.
I have no rights over and of the SGA characters or settings and this is just being written for fun.
*****
Sam looked down on them helplessly. Ever since SGA-1 had returned from M3X-387, all hell had broken loose. People were having nightmares and she had lost one of the expedition members. Radek had brought another crystal to help find the entity. This had led to Rodney. She had agreed for them to use the equipment that they had developed at the SGC to allow John to get in to Rodney's mind but that hadn't been what it was meant for. And now the entity was in John. All she could do was watch and wait and hope that John was strong enough to make it. And pray that the hasmat suits would be enough to stop whatever it was moving on again.
John had had enough of this creature. Colonel Sheppard was making his life hell. He had to watch as his friends were put through all sorts of pain and anguish. Not only that, thanks to this creature, one of his colleagues had died. Now after having watched as it had gone after Rodney, it was here for him.
They both ended up on the gateroom floor with a thud. John felt winded by the impact as he lay there looking in to the eyes of the alien entity. Instead of strange eyes he saw his own. John was unnerved by this and didn’t notice the Colonel taking a tight grip of his arms. It was only as he tried to get up that he realised that he was pinned. And he was not happy about it.
Looking up at the Colonel John could feel the hatred welling up inside him. “What the hell do you want? Isn’t it enough that you have scared my friends and killed some of them too?"
The Colonel looked down at him. “I am sorry. I wish it hadn’t been you. Anyone but you.” Then he continued with, what almost sounded like regret in his voice, “ I cannot help being what I am any more that you can.”
John looked surprised as the Colonel’s features softened from the hate and contempt that had been there before. In-fact John could have sworn that there was a look of sadness in his eyes.
The Colonel looked up at John’s face and said, “You are a very complex man John Sheppard. I knew this when I became one with you back on the planet and I can feel it even more now.”
John looked at him, trying to mask his feelings. This received a laugh, smile and a shake of the head.
“It’s too late for that John. I am in your mind. I have felt the pain and anger. I have also felt the hate and the confusion there too.”
Looking up at him, John barely concealed his anger. ‘What do you want from me?”
The Colonel leant down and placed his lips on John’s in a chaste kiss. Pulling back the Colonel looked at him.
“I want the one thing that I am not certain I can have. I want you John.”
John lay there in shock. This was not what he had expected and he didn’t know how he wanted to react.
“You have no idea how beautiful you are John Sheppard. I felt that the minute I entered your mind. Not only that, you are brave and loyal. I see that in your mind. I see the pain that you have from all those that you have lost, from the thought that Rodney has gone.”
As the Colonel moved above him, John felt his arousal against him.
“Let go of me and let me get up” he growled.
The Colonel did so, uncertain of what was going to happen next. As they stood in silence, John closed the distance towards him. Standing facing him, he lifted his hand and ran it down the Colonel’s face, his face. There was something in the back of him mind that was warning him that this was wrong but he chose to ignore it. As he looked at the Colonel he could see that his eye’s were dark with lust and he wondered if that was what he looked like when he was turned on.
Despite the anger that he still felt towards the Colonel, as he closed his eyes, John could feel the blood surging to his groin. Suddenly, without warning, he closed the distance between them and kissed the Colonel. It was rough and hard. It felt so good. John's mind was lost in how surreal it all felt. It was him and yet it wasn't him and he didn't really know how to deal with it. So in the end he decided to surrender himself to the moment, loosing himself in heat and passion of the kiss.
Then with one thought the pair of them were standing naked.
"If only it was that easy when I am awake." John thought with a smile.
John felt an erection pushing in to his groin as he looked up in to the Colonel's eye's. They were black with lust. John had no doubt that his looked the same. He pulled the Colonel in to his body. He felt their two cocks rub together and began to run his hands up and down the Colonel's body, mapping every curve, every ripple of muscle.
The Colonel looked at John and said, "Fuck me please."
John ran his fingers through the Colonel's hair and nodded. He found himself wanting this as much as the Colonel did. Soon they were on the ground, with John laying on top, his heart beginning to race.
In the isolation room Jennifer watched as John's heart beat began to race. This was not good.
"His heart rate is dangerously high. I don't want to wake him up with him being in this state, it could make the situation worse."
"Not only that, " Radek pointed out, "The entity would still be in his body."
"Hook me up again. It might help him to know that I am alive."
Dr Keller did as Rodney asked. After a few moments Rodney opened his eyes.
"I can't get in. I can't do it"
In the gateroom John pulled the Colonel's legs over his shoulders. He then entered him and began to fuck him, rocking backward and forward. Soon the room was filled with the moans and groans of two beings giving themselves to each other. It didn't matter to John that this was happening in his head. It still felt real and oh god it felt so good.
As John kept moving the Colonel began to call out his name, "John. John. John" It slowly became a chant.
John began to move in rhythm with the chant. This soon took the Colonel over the edge and he came with scream that was almost primeval. This in its turn made John orgasm with his whole body shuddering as he did so. Slowly John collapsed on top of the Colonel his spent member slipping from the Colonel's body as he did so.
As the two men curled up beside each other the Colonel looked at John and said, "I wish I could stay but you know that it would never work. As much as I have feelings for you, unlike you I cannot deny what I am."
Slowly, with a gentleness that bordered on reverence, the Colonel ran his hand down John's face.
"You and I both know that it wouldn't be long before I left you to search for another mind. How many more would I kill?"
John looked at him with understanding in his eyes. He knew what the Colonel said was true. As well as that he knew that there was no way that Atlantis would be allowed to function if they knew that such an entity was loose.
"Yeah, you're right." John said, as he looked at the form that lay beside him.
With a sigh, he got up and gave the Colonel a hand up. " Yeah. I agree. Not sure I could cope with another me, even if you are in my head."
With one thought the two men were clothed again, standing face to face.
In the isolation room Jennifer looked at John's heartbeat. It was still dangerously high and there was nothing that she could do.
Rodney looked at her with panic in his eyes and said, "Let me try again please"
Jennifer looked at him and nodded. It couldn't make the situation worse.
Back in the gateroom John and the Colonel waited. Rodney suddenly appeared at the top of the stairs. John gave him a small nod of the head and the Colonel rushed up the stairs.
"You should be dead." The Colonel looked at him as he ran up the stairs.
"Well I didn't die did I. " Rodney said with a grin.
Anger flashed in the Colonel's eyes as he ran up the stairs. Grabbing Rodney round the neck he snarled, " Then I will have to finish the job. You know that you can't win."
With that he threw Rodney against a wall with a sickening thud. John had to react to this. Running up the stairs he pulled the Colonel off Rodney and stood there and waited.
Rodney stood up and trying not let the Colonel know that he was hurting when he spluttered, " Oh, yes we can."
Suddenly there was a bolt of electricity that ran through the alien. John winced as he watched. But he knew that there was nothing he could do.
Rodney continued, " You are vulnerable to electric shocks. That's why you couldn't kill me. You had to move on before you had finished."
Back in the isolation room Keller gave John another shock through his stomach. The Colonel arched his back with a look of agony on his face. As the electricity faded he fell to his knees. The Colonel knew what was coming next. He didn't want it but he knew that there was no other way.
John moved down and grabbed him. With some effort he managed to throw him though the gate.
John stared at the gate as it closed. Rodney came down to stand beside him.
"I'm glad that's over." He said with a sight of relief.
"Yeah, I don't want to go through that again" John answered, trying to sound as natural as possible.
Rodney looked at him and said, "Yeah but I thought that there would be more people here and more women."
John looked at him and raised his eyebrows as he laughed.
Back in the isolation room Radek nodded as the crystal lit up. He disconnected the cables to Rodney's head as Jennifer took the leads off his head. John suddenly became aware that he was no longer in the gate room. Lifting his head he found that he was in the isolation room. As he looked up to the observation room John saw Sam smiling down at him. He gave her a weak smile. As he lay down, John looked across at Rodney. Smiling, Rodney lay his head back down on the pillow. John lay his head back too. He had a feeling that although the entity was gone from his mind, he would be feeling the after effects for a long time to come.
Epilogue -
John watched as Rodney lay the last crystal down on the floor. Suddenly crystals began to light up all around him. John wondered if the entity was telling the others about him. As the lights came on as far as the eye could see, he wasn't sure he wanted to find out.
When they got back to Atlantis, Dr Keller had one last look over Rodney and John and said, " I want you to go and get some rest."
As she spoke she looked at them both and said, "I mean it. If I catch either of you up an about for the rest of the day, I will have you marched back to your quarters. "
John looked at Rodney and wondered how long it would be before she would have to make good on that threat. As far as he was concerned, he was more than happy to spend some down time.
It wasn't long before John, wearing nothing but his boxers and t-shirt, collapsed face down on his bed, drifting straight of to sleep.
Suddenly he found himself sitting on the edge of the bed. The sun was streaming through the window in to his room. Standing up and stretching he felt ready to face the day.
After his shower John walked in to his room and stood before him mirror. As he looked at his reflection. It changed in to the familiar form of the Colonel.
John looked at him and said, "I'm dreaming aren't I."
The figure looked back and said, " I guess so."
John looked worried. "I wouldn't worry. I'm not going to be here long. I just wanted to say goodbye."
John reached out his hand and ran it over the mirror. The figure of the Colonel looked at him and smiled. John smiled back.
"I'm glad to see that you are ok. I never wanted to hurt you. You should stop hiding from yourself. Goodbye John."
With that the figure disappeared leaving John looking at his own reflection.
It was then that he found himself lying in his own bed. Looking at time he rolled over and closed his eyes. Suddenly everything fell in to place and John was at peace for the first time in a long time.