did that hurted?
i'd appreciate it if you read this.
*i never really had a problem because of leaving
but everything reminds me of her this evening
so if i seem a little out of it, sorry
but why should i lie?
everything reminds me of her
the spin of the earth impaled a silhouette of the sun on the steeple
and i gotta hear the same sermon all the time now from you people
"why are you staring into outer space crying?
just because you came across is and lost it?"
everything reminds me of her.*
this post is broken up with songs bcuz it helps me put feelings in context. i don't know what to do anymore. i ruined everything and i don't know how. but i do know that people should just leave jess alone about this bcuz i dont want her upset. i also know that i appreciate my friends very much...almost as much as i love them.
*It’s finally happened and he’s making his peace
All the reminders don’t bother him in the least
The Jekyll and Hyde shit will finally cease
His eyes on fire and his hands kind of shake
Like his voice is ready to break
You kind of wonder how long this boy’s been awake
Or how much less sense one person can make
If he spins fast enough than maybe
the broken pieces of his heart will stay together
But ain’t no gyroscope can spin forever, yea
If he spins fast enough than maybe
the broken pieces of his heart will stay together
But ain’t no gyroscope can spin forever, yea
Happiness is such hard work, and it gets harder every day
And it can kill you, but no one wants to be that tacky about it, yea
If you spin fast enough than maybe the broken pieces of your heart will stay together
But some things I’ve seen lately make me doubt it.*
and so, yes. i know i contradicted myself a bit on certain things but what has remained constant is how much i care. i'm not even going to go on in detail in here anymore. i want things to be ok and i want you to care about me. that's all i know. i'll do whatever i can to make you happy.
even if it's leaving you alone. just tell me what you want. i will always be here for you.
*But I’m not unsympathetic
I see why you left
There’s no one to know
There’s nothing to do
The city’s been dead
Since you’ve been gone…
Oh I never had just whatever it is you want, baby
And I really tried, I tried with all my might-it made me crazy
To try to figure out what it is I’ve done wrong every time
When everything I love, everything I hold dear
Heads out sometime
And all I ever say now is good-bye.*
all i'm asking for is an actual chance.
*i never really had a problem because of leaving
but everything reminds me of her this evening
so if i seem a little out of it, sorry
but why should i lie?
everything reminds me of her
the spin of the earth impaled a silhouette of the sun on the steeple
and i gotta hear the same sermon all the time now from you people
"why are you staring into outer space crying?
just because you came across is and lost it?"
everything reminds me of her.*
this post is broken up with songs bcuz it helps me put feelings in context. i don't know what to do anymore. i ruined everything and i don't know how. but i do know that people should just leave jess alone about this bcuz i dont want her upset. i also know that i appreciate my friends very much...almost as much as i love them.
*It’s finally happened and he’s making his peace
All the reminders don’t bother him in the least
The Jekyll and Hyde shit will finally cease
His eyes on fire and his hands kind of shake
Like his voice is ready to break
You kind of wonder how long this boy’s been awake
Or how much less sense one person can make
If he spins fast enough than maybe
the broken pieces of his heart will stay together
But ain’t no gyroscope can spin forever, yea
If he spins fast enough than maybe
the broken pieces of his heart will stay together
But ain’t no gyroscope can spin forever, yea
Happiness is such hard work, and it gets harder every day
And it can kill you, but no one wants to be that tacky about it, yea
If you spin fast enough than maybe the broken pieces of your heart will stay together
But some things I’ve seen lately make me doubt it.*
and so, yes. i know i contradicted myself a bit on certain things but what has remained constant is how much i care. i'm not even going to go on in detail in here anymore. i want things to be ok and i want you to care about me. that's all i know. i'll do whatever i can to make you happy.
even if it's leaving you alone. just tell me what you want. i will always be here for you.
*But I’m not unsympathetic
I see why you left
There’s no one to know
There’s nothing to do
The city’s been dead
Since you’ve been gone…
Oh I never had just whatever it is you want, baby
And I really tried, I tried with all my might-it made me crazy
To try to figure out what it is I’ve done wrong every time
When everything I love, everything I hold dear
Heads out sometime
And all I ever say now is good-bye.*
all i'm asking for is an actual chance.