My problems are really troublesome u.u
“Trouble is the common denominator of living. It is the great equalizer.” - Soren Kierkegaard
Since a couple years back, I learnt that I have a problem with reading. No, I can read just fine. The problem is to understand what is written there. Dang. I started to realize it when I was in senior high. My language test are always using a story. It's only a paragraph, really. But when the paragraph are being too long, no spacing and all, my brain started to mixed things up, and I ended up confused with what I was reading before. It's like, I read, but I forget most of the information written there. For example, there is a long paragraph telling us a story about how a mother struggle to pay her families life and so on, and so on. After I finished reading it, most of the things that I understand is that there's a mother, and a family... what was she doing? Why did her family ended up survived? Wait, what was she doing again? Just like that.
It's not a real trouble at first. I just have to read it for like 2 or 3 times, before I fully understand, and then the problem finished. Most of times, it occured only on my lesson. I got no real problem in everyday life, so I always think 'ah, because it's a lesson, that's why it's hard for me to understand' But lately, it's getting even more troublesome, because it happen most of the time. When I read newspaper, when I read novel, when I read fanfiction, when I read some written rules. I think something serious happen to my brain -____-
It's like, even though I read everything carefully, nothing goes into my brain. So I'm having a hard time to understand what happen or what does it means? If some of you think it was because of the language difference, too bad it's not. Because it happens even when the text I write is written in Indonesian language.
Other things that I realized is that, my poor span is not only on written text, but to a long speech. Long as in, you talk non stop, and I just couldn't understand what you said. I feel so sorry with my friends, because I always ask them to repeat what they said to me for a couple of times. Like "oh... what was it again? wait, wait, slowly, I didn't understand what you said. Can you repeat it once more?"
What.Happen.To.Me?
I couldn't tell my parents, because my mom would think that I'm joking or she would blame it all to my internet addiction (tho it had nothing to do with it), and because my father just wouldn't say anything. He's not really a person who likes to give comment. You know, like when I bought clothes and asked him "pap, which one is better do you think?" his answer would be "It's up to you, which one that you want to buy?"
And that's not really helpfull. It's like, when I told him "pap, I think somethings wrong happen with my head." and he would said "hmm, so what do you want to do with your head?" Really.
I think I'll just have to bear with my problem for now. Later when I already found a decent job, I'll try to do something about it -_____-