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sometimes i actually can't see myself doing anything in life
sometimes when i'm happy i can
but i keep thinking...whats the point?
i'm going to die one day somehow
and i cant take anything with me
and i really want to live it to the fullest but thats constantly on my mind.
"LD, you may be famous for about a year then just wear off and be forgotten."
i think that's my biggest fear.
sometimes i have dreams i die in a car accident or i get shot
or of a self-induced drug overdose
i'm really scared and i feel alone..
but i want to be my own person; an independent.
what road do i take?
it's almost like i'm at one of those wooden signs you see in movies where the people sometimes change the direction the arrows are pointing in. then you come back and they're different again.