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[got_the_spark]

Well, that was eventful. Believe I taught her, her bloody lesson. Of course the crazy bint seemed to enjoy it a bit too much. Although gotta admit its nice having my way with her. Can’t bloody beat that can you now. Went all soft for too long. Even in the sack I was all soft. Forgot what if felt like to have my bleeding way with the girl

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[got_the_spark]

The crazy bint thought this was funny. I couldn’t believe her insolence.

"Sensative aren't we. Relax Willie, I read it in one of those watcher diaries and shit. I was - well when I was human - bored at the shop and I decided to read up. I read everything about you, dunno why but you kinda fasinated me. When I was human I liked you, thought you had something in you. I think she was even in love with you - at least I think so, can't really ask her, you killed her."

“They have that in those bloody awful books.” I couldn’t believe this, how would that have gotten in there. No bleeding way. And did she say she was reading up on me? “You, kitten were reading up on me. Didn’t realize I fascinated the little witch.” I started to feel proud of myself.

“So she might’ve been in love with me. Willow’s little witch of a girlfriend was in love with big bad Spike.” I began to laugh “That’s a laugh pet. Who do you think your fooling?”

Of course I didn’t believe her, why the bloody ‘ell should I. Wouldn’t surprise me if she’s trying to play mind games with me. Well it won’t work on me. None of that works on me, too keen for that sort of thing.

Not like she would’ve even loved me. After reading all those things in there, my poems, any girl would be turned away. Was too soft, didn’t have what she wanted. Didn’t have what anyone bloody wanted, besides mother that is.

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“They have that in those bloody awful books. You, kitten were reading up on me. Didn’t realize I fascinated the little witch. So she might’ve been in love with me. Willow’s little witch of a girlfriend was in love with big bad Spike. That’s a laugh pet. Who do you think your fooling?”

I stood up and looked at him. "Who the fuck do I have to fool Spike? Nobody. That's stupid shit. No soul here remember? I don't give a flyin fuck either way when it comes to you." Liar. "Like I care if you have feelings?" Shut, up. I care damnit. "Yeah, lil ol mortal me had a big yen for big bad. Still does. You're something I could never, ever, be as a mortal. I was shoved in this pervibal box of being this quiet and shy little piss on while you got to let loose. Yeah, I wanted you. Too afraid to do anything about it."

I paced over to him. "Not to mention those big ol cow eyes you have for Buffy." I batted my lashes and gazed up at him with big eyes, mocking him slightly. "I actually took he William volume of the diaries and it was in my bedroom. I read it cover to cover, over and over." I cursed myself silently not sure why the hell I was telling him this. No idea what so ever.

I crossed my arms and looked at him. "Yes, shy lesbo Tara is in love with big bad Spike. Go on, walk all over me. That's what people do best isn't it." I spun on my heel and headed for the balcony. I so hated myself for letting myself actually tell him this.

[got_the_spark]

I just stood there as she went on and on. Didn’t really leave me much of a chance to respond. At first I just wanted to tell her to sod off. Didn’t want to hear her crap especially when she mocked me. But then she went on. Something changed about the way I felt for her. Who bloody knew all this time that someone bloody loved me. Well, of course she loved big bad me. Always was that side of me that was loved. Couldn’t get any damn respect as a bleeding human and when I went all soft again because of that bloody chip. Guess being a big bad is what I do best.

“Should’ve said something sooner luv” I followed her towards the balcony. “Well, Tara isn’t shy lesbo anymore, now is she kitten. Tara is an whole other thing now isn’t she.” I placed my hand upon her check and turned her head to face mine. Didn’t really think of her this way until she gave that speech. Maybe she was what I always wanted, what I always yarned for. She wanted to be another Dru for me but she wouldn’t be another Dru. She would be something completely different.

“So does this new and reformed vampire Tara still have feelings for big bad Spike?”

[sexytarawitch]

“Should’ve said something sooner luv...Well, Tara isn’t shy lesbo anymore, now is she kitten. Tara is an whole other thing now isn’t she.”

I snorted and kept my arms crossed over my chest as he talked. I glared at him when he turned my face to his, emotions running through me that I didn't want; they were so human. I didn't want them, I didn't want to give a fuck about anything. He stared at me and I turned and looked at him. "What?"

“So does this new and reformed vampire Tara still have feelings for big bad Spike?”

Yes.

"Why? Thought you didn't care Spike. You don't care about anything you said. So why for fucks sake would I care?" I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair before looking at him. "Ya know, yeah. I do. What of it? You obviously don't give a flyin fuck. Why should I?" I smirked at him and walked till her was pressed against the balcony railing. "Tara still has feelings for big bad Spike...too bad he's not around. Instead you're here." Yeah, let's see what he'll do now. Most likely nothing. That's what he does best.

[got_the_spark]

"Why? Thought you didn't care Spike. You don't care about anything you said. So why for fucks sake would I care? Ya know, yeah. I do. What of it? You obviously don't give a flyin fuck. Why should I?"

“Vampires talk that way luv. Say they don’t care about a thing, when in reality they do. Well, there are some who don’t give a damn about anything just like we’re suppose to yet most are hiding something. Something their demon is hiding. “ I knew about this all too well. For me it was my mother. Even after I got turned to a big bad I still loved my mother and even wanted her to be with Dru and I. That of course didn’t go as planned. They never do seem to go as planned, look what happened with Tara. Was suppose to make everyone all happy by turning her then she would love me, but just like with mother things didn’t go that way. The demon took complete control over her, had to bloody dust her. Shame what happened, but couldn’t bear to see her like that. Why did I seem to be so different then other vampires, still have feelings, human emotions. What was it about this bloody emotion called love.

“I give a fuck luv. As I once said I’m love’s bitch. Can’t get that bleeding emotion out of me.” I was about to go on but stopped. Why should I bloody open myself up to her like that. Could just use it against me. Everyone always used it against me.

"Tara still has feelings for big bad Spike...too bad he's not around. Instead you're here."

“What did you just say kitten” Thought I wasn’t big bad anymore. “What about the past few nights kitten, didn’t hear you complaining.” I grabbed onto her waist and yanked her against me. “Want big bad Spike, well now you got him. What do you want with him luv?” I looked her in the eyes before pushing her down to the ground. “What do you want Tara? Want me to give a bloody damn about you or not? Could just use you and dust you when I’m done, that’s what will happen if you continue this. Say you love me yet still you challenge me.” I took out my pack of smokes and lit up a cigarette before returning my attention to her. “So now pet where were we”

I took a few drags from the cigarette before looking down at her again. “Bugger this” I leaned down on top of her and used her cool flesh to put my bud out. “Love the way the flesh burns.” I looked down on the burn mark on her chest.

[sexytarawitch]

“What did you just say kitten? What about the past few nights kitten, didn’t hear you complaining. Want big bad Spike, well now you got him. What do you want with him luv?”

I smirked up at him when he pulled me against him. "Ohhh I love this side. I want big bad." But a part of me wants William damnit. Stupid humanity.

He threw me on the ground and I watched him. I half waited for him to undo his pants and make me say I'm sorry. Mmm that was my favorite way to say I'm sorry to him...

I cried out when he put the cigarette out on my chest, I shoved his hand away and looked down at my chest. "You fuckin' bastard. That's going to leave a mark." I struggled under him, feeling his hard cock press against me through his clothes. "Asshole."

I looked up at him and shook my head. "Yeah, you're loves bitch alright." My smirk turned into a serious look. "Must be inherited somehow through vampires or whatever." My heart didn't beat but I still gave a crap. "It took you over a hundred years William and you finally found someone like you." Now if he only told me he actually cares...

[got_the_spark]

"You fuckin' bastard. That's going to leave a mark."

I just laughed. “Don’t you think that was the point luv?” I could feel her struggle beneath me but she got no where. Gotta admit, I got all turned on being on top of her like this.

"Yeah, you're loves bitch alright. Must be inherited somehow through vampires or whatever. It took you over a hundred years William and you finally found someone like you."

I just laughed at her. Didn’t know whether to take her serious or not. Sure sounds nice that she could be in love with me, even want what I want yet look at how she has disrespected me already. Wouldn’t be surprise if this witch has some nasty games up her sleeve.

“What are you trying to say luv? Your just like me? Well, that’s a laugh.” Quickly I pressed my lips against hers for a passionate kiss. Vampire or not I did feel something there. Something more then just a bloody kiss.

“You don’t know a bloody thing about me luv, only know what’s in those bleeding books of yours. All hearsay.” I got up from her. Sure I wanted to do that whole torture thing again but the feeling that I got. It was just a bloody kiss wasn’t it, no something was different. Wouldn’t be surprised if she put some bloody spell on me Or maybe she was right. Was she what I have been looking for.

I turned around and started to walk away from her.

[sexytarawitch]

“Don’t you think that was the point luv?”

"So what, I'm some god damn toy for you huh? Mark me like a dog then leave me like one? Ugh! I'm so sick of this." Ok, why the fuck am I so damn emotional? This is insane.

He laughed, the bastard laughed in my face at what I said. Fucked up part is I meant what I said damnit. I growled up at him, angry and frustrated. I didn't know how to get my point across with him.

“What are you trying to say luv? Your just like me? Well, that’s a laugh.”

I blinked. "Yes you fuck that's what I'm try-" My words were cut off by his lips and I pulled him down to me but he pulled away and stood up. Frustrating bastard.

“You don’t know a bloody thing about me luv, only know what’s in those bleeding books of yours. All hearsay.”

I arched my back and got to my feet quicky. Ok, one plus of being a vampire. Fixing my clothes I walked over to him. "Hearsay William?" I grabbed his arm and pulled him back to me, my eyes meeting and challenging his before I roughly tossed him onto his back on the bed.

Slowly I crawled up his body nipping and licking at his chest before I pinned his arms above his head and looked down at him. "I know a lot about you Spike. You're my Sire, I've seen things. I know about your mother..." I spoke quietly and evenly, I didn't feel like pissing him off any more. I wanted to get my point across that I actually care.

"I'm like you William, inspite of the non-beating heart I care. That never stopped, as much as I'd like to hope it did, it didn't."

I squirmed on his lap and got into a better position. "How the fuck can I prove that I care? I stayed in that bed for three days while you cut, beat and fucked the last bits of life out of me. I'm a witch, remember? I could have gotten out whenever I wanted. But I didn't." I leaned down and it was my turn to give him a bruising kiss.

[got_the_spark]

"Hearsay William?"

All of a sudden I felt her grab onto my arm, can’t explain the bloody feelings that went racing through my body when I felt her cool touch upon me. I awaited to see what she would do next. Part of me just wanted to kiss her and end this bloody war between us, make something happen. Yet, part of me didn’t want to give into her, not yet. Suppose to be a bloody vampire and not give a damn bout stuff like this.

When I least expected it she tossed me back onto the bed. Really didn’t expect that move from her. She crawled up me like I was some sort of prey to her. Must admit I liked this side of her, especially when she pinned me down.

"I know a lot about you Spike. You're my Sire, I've seen things. I know about your mother..."

“What?” I said softly. She knew about my bleeding mother and what happened. Couldn’t believe it. Surprise the she didn’t think I was crazy for it. Dru didn’t like the idea of turning mother, not one bit. “How..”

"I'm like you William, inspite of the non-beating heart I care. That never stopped, as much as I'd like to hope it did, it didn't."

“You care kitten?” Had to say I was still a little surprised. Especially with the way the bloody bint went all psycho vampire on me. Didn’t bloody listen to a word I said and thought she was all so powerful. I created a bloody monster, but I monster who cares? That sure wasn’t in the book. Thought she was just as bad as Angelus, now there is a monster that doesn’t give a damn about anything or anyone. But somehow she was different.

"How the fuck can I prove that I care? I stayed in that bed for three days while you cut, beat and fucked the last bits of life out of me. I'm a witch, remember? I could have gotten out whenever I wanted. But I didn't."

Never thought of it that way. She was right, she could’ve just up and left but she didn’t. Why? Did she actually care? “I gue-” I was cut off by her lips connecting with mine. There was that feeling again. I managed to get one of my hands free and placed it on the back of her head keeping her there for the kiss. Our tongues tangled together for awhile before I flipped her over. Now I was on top of her and continued the kiss.

I pulled away and looked into those eyes of hers. Something seemed different. Something changed in that look of hers. “Do you really care pet?” I said in a soft voice.

[sexytarawitch]

Everything happening was such a blur to me and was something I didn't think I could sit and grasp it if I wanted too. I didn't care. I knew what I wanted and I was going to have it.

Including him.

I ignored his questions about how I knew about his mother and whatever other babble he spouted out. I wasn't interested. Only thing that mattered was how his lips felt on mine and fuck was it good. I lost all train of thought as I fell deeper into the kiss, moaning softly as his tongue wrestled with mine.

He pulled back and I found myself staring up at him, he must have flipped us over when I was distracted. My chest heaved as I stared up at him, trying to prepare myself for anything at this point.

“Do you really care pet?”

I tilted my head and looked at him curiously. He actually seemed to mean it. I growled in frustration and looked up at him. "I told you I did didn't I? Yes, fuckin' hell, Spike, yes. I care. I care a hell of a lot. If I didn't I wouldn't have given a fuck if that slayer whore touched you, or if her and her pansy ass Angel won that fight that night. But I care. I ripped that fuckers soul right from his body, knowing he'd be more interested in saving her instead of killing you." I sighed and looked up at him. "Why? What else do you want to rip from me? How else are you gonna rip me down Spike? Common, give me your best shot." Just because my hert didn't beat anymore didn't mean I was gonna let him trample on it.

[got_the_spark]

Couldn’t believe what I was bloody hearing. She did all that for me? Because she bloody cared about me, Spike, William the bloody. Well, I guess I did have that affect on girls. The whole Billy Idol, British look. Although Billy stole this look from me. “Wanna know what I’m gonna rip from you” I looked down and gave her a seductive grin. She just looked up at me and before she could say anything I sat up a bit and I ripped that bloody awful dress off of her. “Much better without that thing.”

I smiled and connected lips with her again. I then took off my shirt and slid down my pants. “Do you want it luv?” I said as I slide my hard cock inside her. But this time it was different. I went a bit softer then normal, wanted her to know things were different between the two of us. Oh bloody ‘ell with this soft shit, I began to go faster and harder. I knew she enjoyed it rough and hard.

“That’s right kitten” I said as I grabbed onto her hair and began to pull it. “Gotta make you scream” I continued to ride her as her moans got louder and louder.

[sexytarawitch]

“Wanna know what I’m gonna rip from you”

I gasped when he ripped my dress off of me. I liked that damn thing! I looked up at him and blinked, trying to see what game he was playing. I didn't think he was playing one. At least I hoped not.

“Much better without that thing.”

He started stripping, asking me if I wanted it. "Yes..." I hissed. "I want it Spike, fuck so bad, ohhh." He slowly pushed his cock into me, driving me almost to the point of being mad. "Ohhh..." I whimpered and looked up at him, his eyes mirroring what I knew was in mine.

“That’s right kitten...Gotta make you scream”

I cried out when he grabbed my hair. "Ohhh fuck..." All I could do was whimper and moan under him. "Not gonna." I loved making it difficult for him. Crying out I arched to him and tightened around his cock as he slammed into me. "Mmmmm fuck yeah."

[got_the_spark]

Ah yes of course the bloody bint said she wouldn’t scream, always gave me a hard time bout such things. Guess I better get used to that. I continued to slam my cock into her. Each time it went so deep inside, felt like it couldn’t go any deeper. Well, I still tired to get it deeper. Felt so good the deeper it went.

“That’s right kitten” I said as I pulled her hair again. I brought my face down to her neck and ran my tongue across her cool skin. Within a matter of a second my face changed as bumps emerged out of my forehead and fangs peeked their way out’ve my lips. Lightly I brushed my fangs a few times across her neck. Then with one quick slam of the cock inside of her I delivered my fangs through the layers of skin on her neck.

Her blood filled me with more energy then ever and I began to fuck her faster and harder then I already was. Must say, the things blood does to a man. Well, that is a vampire of course. Bloody crazy if blood did that to a mortal man.

Once I finished drinking from her I pressed my blood filled lips against hers, allowing her to taste herself within our kiss.

[sexytarawitch]

I moaned everytime he pulled my hair, making me want him more with every thrust. I felt his face change against my neck before he ran his fangs over me. "Mmm mark me." Even as the words left my lips he slammed into me as he bit down, making me cry out and tighten around him.

Writhing under him as he fucked and marked me set my body on fire. I drug my nails down his back, tightening my legs around his waist, panting as he slammed into me repeatedly.

I started to feel a bit light headed when he finally pulled back, his lips crashing against mine and I kissed him deep and hard, feeling myself tighten around him I arched my back and started to shudder. "Ohhh fuck...I'm so close..." I growled and looked up at him. "Make me come....ohh damn...please."

[got_the_spark]

I could feel how close she was. Well, that and besides the fact that she told me she was close. I continued doing what I was doing. Her whole body shaking against mine. I began to feel a tingle as her legs tightened around my waist. I was so close, so close to the feeling of ecstasy. This time it was different with her, this time there was more feeling. Before it was just fun and games.

I pressed my lips against hers as I let out a moan. My whole body tightened up as I gave that last shove and everything was released. Slowly I came to a stop and stared into her eyes. I couldn’t say anything but just look at her. What was it? What changed me? I couldn’t explain this feeling that I got, was it there before but I wasn’t letting it in? Still blinded by the bloody slayer? But not anymore, I saw a whole new light of things.

“Well, then” was all I managed to get out. Didn’t want to turn too soft for her now did I? I slide off of her and onto my side. I traced her arm as she turned to face me.

[sexytarawitch]

I tightened my legs around his waist and moaned against his lips as I came, my nails dragging down his back, pulling his body closer to mine.

I was panting - even though I didn't need to - and he looked down at me, no words, just a look. I ran my hands over his chest and neck, wanting to say something, wanting him to say anything. I felt something in the pit of my stomach and I wasn't sure if it was good or bad or if it was new. But it was there, and it wasn't going away.

"Well, then."

He pulled out and laid next to me, I whimpered softly, feeling a void and I turned to him. I looked at his fingers as they trailed over my arm. "Spike..." I looked up and my eyes met his. I could kick myself for what I said next. "I know I'm not her, I'll never be her but..." Do you think you can give a fuck about me like you did her...