slightly bitter is okay.

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i finally got amanda down on paper, its been driving me crazy all day.
god she is fucking hard to draw.



amanda darkness
i crumpled it up cause i got really frustrated but i like it better this way. i think it totally adds to the portrait and reflects her personality.



amanda lightness
i did this in sculpture class cause the impulse had grabbed me by the wrist and i couldnt free myself.

sculpture.
i wanted to stay there all night.

i love the people who are in that class.

but i'm really tired.

i dont give a shit. i dont give a fuck. you know that i dont, i dont give a fuck. i dont give a shit about your fake society, i dont give a shit about your rules and preferences, your religions and your snob-towers, or your fucking sob-stories. i dont give a shit about your fucking selfishness. i dont care what anyone thinks of me; i dont need to because i have a core of passion that i live off of in meager times. i dont give a fuck. i am me and thats all there is to it. i rock and thats all there is to it. i love and i live with all of my being and i dont forget and i dont forgive but i never regret and thats all there is to it.
and thats all there is to it
and thats all there is to it.

i am slightly bitter and very defensive, but i am glad to admit it.
and i figure a slight bitterness is always okay.