There aint a line I've drawn that you havn't crossed.
I want this to happen so unbelieveably bad. I want us to happen. I'm so tired of these stupid games. I'm tired of waking up every morning thinking of him, and going through every day thinking of him, and falling asleep every night thinking of him. I'm tired of missing him. I'm tired of telling him how much I love him. And I'm just so damn tired. Because I feel like maybe I'm doing all of this in vein. Like maybe it's all so pointless. But then it all turns back around, and it's so beautiful, and I feel like maybe we really are getting somewhere in our relationship. And I'm so confused. He doesn't know what he wants, and I know exactly what I want. And it's being dangled right in front of my face. I just want him to love me, and want to be with me. I want to be able to call out of the blue at 4:00 in the morning just to tell him how much I love him, and how much I miss him. I want that to be ok with him. i just want some clarity, because I'm so lonely. And the only person I want to be with is him. I look around me and see everyone together, I see everyone being happy, and I want that god damn it. I'm just not satisfied with this any more. I don't want us to stop what we have, that would be horrible. But if it's possible I want us to be so much more. I'd rather have this than nothing at all. Not only do I love him, but he's my best friend. And for some reason I can't find it in my self to tell him this. I'm in love with him, and I can't just turn away this time. I'm in way to deep.