your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.

[flowerinthesun]

I feel so good about last night. Even though he got mad at me about the stupidest shit ever, we of course found some way to get around that. Just like always. Something was different. It was perfect. We talked. And I mean really talked. And not about us. We laughed and flirted, and touched, and kissed. He tickled me, and I gave him massages. We played around and joked with each other. And we didn't take it seriously! I'm so happy for that too. It was really great. Why can't we be like that all the time? I don't know. But it doesn't matter, because it's those times that make me like him so much. it's times like that when I fall in love with him. I want to go back to the days when we sat in his car until 4 o'clock in the morning, and we did all of the things that we did last night. What all of the sudden happened? Once again, it doesn't matter. Because thats what it is. Thats what keeps me around. Because I know that we some where have it in us to do this. We'll just have to wait a little while for it to all to fall back together. When it happens, it's gonna be great. And I'm willing to wait around for that day. I doubted it a lot for wa while, but I just can't quit trying to do this. I don't want him to go back to omaha. I miss him way too much.

I don't care what Zach says. the feelings are there. And they are real. And they are mutual. Maybe it'll never really work out the way we want it too. But I'm not done yet. And neither is he. So why give up now?