my dreams only die when i'm dreaming
i said that i wouldn't hurt about this. i said that i wouldn't be so sad. i said that i wasn't goiong to let another guy get me liket his. but i just can't help it. i'd so any thing to make him see just how much he means to me. and me. i'm the one that fucked this whole thing. he wasn't going to break up with me. he said all these things that he was going to do for me. i jsut simply don't know what to do with my self now. I don't want to talk to any one, i don't want to see any one, i don't want to be with any one, unless it's him. and he won't call, and he won't come over, and he won't be with me. i'm so unbelievably heart broken. i am going to try as hard as i can to not call him. and i'm going to try to not think about him. and i'm going to try and not long for him. and be sad about him. i just wish that i could have back everything that i fucked up. but i can't make him like me. i can just hope with all of my heart that he does.